Well readers, I know my usual blog consists of a review of my day, and is a strong talk about friendship but a blog dedicated to this person is well overdue. This one is just going to tell you the main background story of my relationship with Eryne, as you should know by either knowing me or reading, who is my girlfriend. Well... here we go.
I can remember quite vividly the first time she caught my eye. It was in the Summer (I couldn't exactly tell you which Summer but I know it was Summer time). I was forced to go to my little brother's baseball game and as compensation, I was allowed to go to the wave pool after. To the game I wore some stupid t shirt and my favorite pair of lime green argyle swim trunks. I went to the game looking like a complete idiot and acted like an even larger one throughout the time. To parents, they all knew me. I was entertainment and always made them laugh and such. It wasn't until halfway through my loud attention grabbing complaining and cheering against my own brother for their season and game to end before I noticed her. The words that entered my head were simply "Oh shit." I figured at this point I blew any chance of being acquainted with her that day so I was just hoping she never caught my name. I was quite embarrassed, but I just carried on as I figured everything was already blown. That was the first time I noticed her and the last time I saw her until school sophomore year.
During the beginning of sophomore year there were no kids in my lunch in my grade. I only knew a few freshman so I chose to sit with them. Kendall Lang and Anthony Hartzog were the two main people I knew that year. I knew nothing about Eryne but I knew the table she sat at. It was a circle table. She sat with some girls I did not know, but she sat with my neighbor Kristi and my sister's friend's sister Maddie. I always glanced at the table, attempting to see her for a little. I was always quite attracted to her. The first thing I learned about her was that she played volleyball. I always attended the JV games as that is where my grade mainly played aside from a few girls. That is where I learned her name and a few things about her from Anthony. He attended every game with me because he was talking to Eryne's friend Allie. They were on the verge of dating so I always accompanied him. Fortunately for me, Allie and he started dating and he asked me to move lunch tables with him. Trust me, I was quite nervous and if you know me, I do not get nervous. I sat down, introduced myself to the people sitting there and became probably better friends to Katy Scruppi. Little did I know was she was one of Eryne's best friends. I never really talked to Eryne though. I was always nervous and tongue tied. This is why I knew she was special and different to me. I never ever ever get nervous. Over time and multiple group hangouts we eventually became friends. I was able to construct sentences and actually speak to her, from there it was my goal to get her to like me. Sadly enough I wasn't close enough to reach that goal at the time.
Allie and Anthony dated for a few months which was long enough for me to develop a strong enough friendship with everyone there to stay at the lunch table after their break up. Really I couldn't allow myself to leave. I had a nice little elementary school crush that I wanted to develop into more. I kept trying but failed over and over again. I was getting discouraged but couldn't give up. Our friendship grew, and over time we actually got close. We started to consider each other best friends which I wasn't too fond of actually. The friend zone was something I kind of feared and wanted to stay out of. I was happy where I was though, I figured at the minimum I wanted her to be a really important person and good friend in my life. Obviously I wanted more than that though.
My favorite memory during our friendship and not our relationship was a game of truth or dare. Eryne refused to deny a dare and someone (for the life of me I cannot remember who) dared her to kiss me. I know it was very cheesy and lame, but I liked it, and it made me very happy. It made me want her more than I already did. After that moment, I was a man on a mission.
Throughout the course of my sophomore year we stayed close but during the Summer we grew a bit more distant due to different interests. I was a partier and she is a good girl that didn't exactly condone my actions. We hung out a few times though which was nice, but it wasn't the same as it was during school. A huge road block hit my mission. She started to fall for another boy.
My good friend Simon started to take an interest to Ernye. I really couldn't say anything because I kept my emotions to myself, but I myself set them up and pushed Simon to go for her. She confided to me on a walk to her house that she liked him quite a bit. Simon was the first person I told I liked and cared about her, but I encouraged him to chase her. As a friend I wanted her to be happy more than anything, but deep down I hoped their relationship would fail. Luckily for me, it did. After that moment I asked to talk to her about it in attempt to get back to where we were before. She told me the story of how it was hard because they never saw each other and it was an inevitable end. That night I was back on my goal.
School started for my junior year and I lucked out with the same lunch as her, Katy, and a few other friends. I didn't sit next to her in the beginning of the year because I still had no clue of her feelings for me. We talked a lot and were still close but I was still good friends with others to sit next to them. Eventually others noticed my interest in her and called me out. I admitted my liking to her and they backed me up and helped talk her into liking me back. I am definitely still in debt to those few. Towards the end of 2010, with the help of liquid courage, I was told her that I loved her. The conversation was brief but I told her how I felt the next day and wasn't just saying it with my impaired state of mind. She told me that she liked me as well and that was my opening. It was time to take her for myself. We talked for about a month until we finally hit a small roadblock. Another close friend of mine, Clifford liked her and took her to prom. She told me that and I slightly went berserk. Things were broken and I was crushed. She had no clue how hard this would hit me as she didn't know I already backed down once to a good friend of mine. Fortunately enough, she said no in hopes I would ask her. I eventually calmed down and realized she had no clue what I had already gone through. My mind was back on track.
On February 5, 2011 she asked me to come to her house and just hang out. Me and her. This was my opening. The activities were nothing special. We played ping pong and ended the night watching Grease. Her's and my favorite musical. I kissed her once before the movie and she kissed back. That was the confidence boost I needed to get my two questions out. While watching Grease, I asked her to prom, and to officially be my girlfriend. Both answers were in my favor. My happiness was through the roof. It is still the best day of my life.
Since that glorious day we have been together for 1 year, and 19 days. We have had an anniversary, 2 valentines days, and celebrated each other's birthdays once. Mine is coming up soon for the second. I have never been happier with her in my life. She accepts me for who I am and loves me unconditionally. And I feel the exact same way. I care for her more than any other person in my life. She is the perfect person for me and I make sure I tell her that daily. She is someone I can never see out of my life. I love her. We have been through some rough times but have always came out on top. We suffered some issues with her friends not liking me that much, but I have matured and am taking steps to fix the relationships I have had with them. That is where this next paragraph will come into play.
This is to Katy. I hope Eryne tells you to read this but this is my formal and public apology. I know looking back on everything that I was completely wrong for things I have done and said to hurt you. You have done nothing wrong to me and I was immature with all of my actions. I regret them every day. I know that we were actually closer friends then me and Eryne at the beginning. I would love to be back into that tight friendship with you. You are a great person and a great friend to the people you love. I know we have a lot of differences, but so do a lot of people and myself. I want to take the steps possible to build our friendship again. You were an important person to me and I want to have you in my life as a friend again. I know it may take time, but I am willing to take the necessary actions in order for things to be like they were before. I just want to say I am truly and dearly sorry for everything and I hope you can forgive me after all of this time.
This is all I have for you guys today. I know it isnt usual for me but I felt the need to write it. There were things that were bugging me and Eryne deserves her own blog post. Thank you all for reading. Without your support I could never do this. I love you all and goodnight:)
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