Silver and Gold

Hey all! I guess it's been a little while since I've wrote to all of you, but I guess my weekend was just so busy I didn't have enough time.  It was my birthday weekend and a lot of my friends were home from college so I had a lot to do for once.  This was truly the best weekend I've had in the longest time.  I saw so many people I haven't seen in a long time and catching up was just great.  Sitting at home alone today after track, I started to think of how different my life is going to be after high school.  I know a lot of people I go to school with right now will probably be nothing to me in a few years, but I like to think there will be a solid handful of kids that I'm going to be close with.

The future scares the hell out of me.  I am a person who loves my school and a lot of the people in it.  I want to be everyone's friend or at least be acquainted with them in same way.  Frau Zanella calls me the president.  I guess I just have that outgoing personality and it is starting to back fire a little bit on me.

Next year I  am going to college at the University of Alabama.  It is a 14 hour drive away and I'll only be able to come home on the long breaks.  With the inability to come back home, I kinda get filled with fear that I will be forgotten.  I am trying really hard to be able to keep a lot of my friends in high school with me.  I want them in my life most definitely.  But it scares me to think that they may move on.  I live off of friendship.  I care about anyone that hasn't done me wrong and will be there for anyone in a heart beat.  It scares me to think someday I won't be needed.  It's almost like I won't serve a purpose in their life anymore.  I don't want that at all.  This is the reason why I fear the future more than anything.  I love everyone in my life, and I don't want to lose them as time goes by in life.

There are certain people that I know will be in my life forever.  Since freshman year: Zack Fell, Dan Bruni, Jake Kreutzman, Justin Harbison, Joe Lanni, Mike Hutton, Kaci Vandergrift and Aaron McKinney have been my closest friends.  Since we became friends, we have stayed friends.  Even through college we have stayed the closest of friends and I know that they will be in my life forever.  There are others that I'm confident they will be here for a while such as Drew and Shields, but there are certain guarantees for people I'm not sure of.  I want to take the most optimistic approach and assume they'll always be here.  But I am never sure.  I question it every so often and it brings me to tears.  It is my goal to keep these people in my life for as long as they can.

There has been a certain saying that I heard when I was a young child. "You will always encounter new friends, but you should always keep the old.  Some are silver and the others are gold."

I am with my golden friends in high school.  They have been here for me longer than I see my college friends being around and I know that in the end I will look back and think that I am very happy that I met this person.  The people I'm with now mean the world to me and I love every single one of them.  They are all perfect people.