Monday morning. My first day single. I knew this could be the hardest day of my life until my birthday dinner after track practice. Eryne agreed to still go which is where I knew I would initiate my plan. I had help from Mara, Tom, and Kaci on what to do and I had the highest hopes for forgiveness although I probably didn't deserve it. School was pretty much a blur. I know I had people ask me how I was and all but that was pretty much it. I was out of it the whole day. My mind couldn't focus on learning with everything going on.
The first day of track was the first time I was happy all day. I got to see everyone coming out and a ton of my friends. It was also very nice to see my coaches. It has been a little while since seeing them except for Will and it was nice to catch up because I've known them for 4 years now. They're interested in my life and I was interested in theirs. Our workout should not have been hard for the average person. We were supposed to take breaks within our intervals but I ran as often as possible. I could feel my mind clearing a ton and it felt good to run. I was a lot less emotional and my mind was finally free. Sadly enough everything came back after the workout. I was nervous but Kaci assured me everything would be ok. I received some good luck texts from some really close friends and they just wanted to know how it ended after dinner and everything. I promised I would but I was off to eat and it was time to hope life had its own rewind button and I could get the girl of my dreams back.
We rode up together, just me and her, which made it a lot easier to talk to her. I immediately apologized and explained myself out. I said exactly how I felt and what I was thinking like I said in the previous post. We agreed a pretty much nullify the previous night's events. It was the most relieving feeling in the world. Dinner went very well. Mine and Tanner's families were there and we all ate a large amount of food. It was the best dinner for my birthday to date. Eryne was there and she was mine again. It couldn't have gone more perfectly. We rode back home and said our goodbyes. I thanked her for accepting me, and accepting my mistake. In the end it was good for us. I know I'll never allow myself to become so stupid again and throw away the person I love for a reason that wasn't nearly good enough. That was my Monday. A damn good Monday.
Before I went to bed though, I ended up talking to Tommy on the phone for 56 minutes. The conversation varied from love, college, food, fishing, and the future. Tom has been through a lot and had quite the wild senior year. He has a lot more strength than a lot of people I know and I'm confident he'll find that dream girl. He made the perfect statement from the saying "there are plenty of fish in the sea." He compared West A to Leopold Lake. It's full of the occasional nice bass, but a lot of stupid useless bluegill. There are also some rainbow trout that are just a mystery as to why they are here. There are also fish that are like a prize fish. They're beautiful to look at but you can't do anything with them. They're insides are shitty and aren't worth the catch unless you just want to mount them on your wall with no attachment. Tommy wants to work his way to the Atlantic Ocean and find a marlin, or any majestic fish in that ocean. He'll be deep sea fishing there soon though. In a few months he'll be in for the fishing trip of his life where he's going to send out his line and catch some really nice fish and eventually he's going to hook the state record that he can love and be proud of forever. I have faith in you fisherman Tom. Good things happen to good people and one day the weather will be perfect to reel in that state record. You'll cherish it forever and it will be the greatest catch of your life. I know that.
Well all, I have one more blog ahead of me tonight. If you read all of these, thank you. It does mean a lot. I'll be typing away ASAP for this final day until I am finally caught up. Thank you all again. You're amazing and I love you.
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