I thought I had my whole entire life planned out. Go to college in a nice southern school, eventually study abroad, gain an engineeirng degree and start a successful career. Recently I have done a ton of thinking and am officially not sure what I am going to do. Since Senior year has started I have gotten much closer with my peers than I have before. I'm not sure if I'll be able to handle being unable to see them for months and months aside from holiday breaks. If that wasn't bad enough, my career thoughts have taken a wild shift. This creative writing class opened my eyes and showed me that I am pretty good at something other than math and science. This is the first english related activity I have succeeded in. I love being able to imagine stories to entertain and scare other people. I am not a messed up kid with a cynical mind, I just think it is very very entertaining.
I am happy but also upset that I took this class. It slightly messes with my future plans I thought I had set in stone. This class has opened my mind to a whole different environment and sadly enough, I really enjoy it. My future went from decided to a blank slate. My original plan is now just a saved draft not ready for publishing. It will always be in consideration but I won't have a decision until the last minute. There are too many things holding me back I need to be ready to break free from. I want to become my own independent person like I have thought of doing for the longest times. I guess I've been ignoring the negative feelings and dependencieson people throughout the years. As college creeps up, I am left clueless on what to do. What should I do? Should I follow my dream or stay closer to my loved ones? Will I be able to handle it? Or will I crash and burn?
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