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I Missed You

It's been a long time since I blogged.  Not that I didn't want to, but I've been so focused on school and sleep I haven't had the time.  Luckily, I am finally caught up in school and have some more time on my hands.  I raised my pathetic 1.2 GPA up to around a 4+.  Needless to say, I am quite proud of myself.  Now I guess I'll just go over some highlights since my last blog.

Number one was the PIHL Championship at the Consol Energy Center.  This game here was my favorite hockey game of the season.  To start it off right, we had a tailgate! Dylan, Mike Cummings, Armand Dellovade, Dustin Peluso, and Colin Cunningham drove to Pittsburgh like 4 hours before the game and set up a tent, a grill, and started cooking.  The tailgate was an absolute success.  A ton of people showed up in our "Dawg" shirts and had a great time.  It was nice to see a majority of the student section together for the most important game yet.  We were all there to show our support for the boys and it was nice to see the school come together for a great activity.  The game was even better than the tailgate.  Dylan and I were there in our green men suits in the front row with the perfect seats.  We were ready for great day, and our suits got a ton of attention.  I love attention and the suits marked ourselves as the "super fans" of the section.  We got on the jumbo tron multiple times and it was just awesome to see us get our publicity.  We had to move sections because we obstructed the view of people behind us, but Dylan and I still got to the front of our new section.  We jumped, screamed, and cheered our boys to victory.  It was our first PIHL championship win ever.  The game was amazing.  Every player played their ass of in attempt to win.  It was taken into overtime and that is where our heart prevailed for the victory.  The other team didn't even get a shot off.  When the game and celebrating ended the whole team came to the student section and saluted us.  This almost brought me to tears.  It was so nice to know how appreciated we were for our dedication to the boys.  They loved us and we loved them.  They knew we had their back win or lose.  After the game we visited the boys at the school to give them proper congratulations.  The smiles on their faces were priceless.  They were the perfect definition of a team being a family.  After that we went and all got ice cream to celebrate.  What a great way to end a great day.  My favorite treat.

The next day was another hockey game.  The state championship.  Sadly, the result wasn't the same.  We were on the losing end of the game and it was heartbreaking.  Seeing my good friends cry their eyes out broke me down.  I sat their crying underneath my green mask.  I know I wasn't as hurt as they were, but I couldn't believe it was over.  I sent all of my good friends a text saying how proud I was of them.  They had an amazing year and will go down in history as the greatest team to ever go on the ice from West Allegheny.  They are champions in my heart.

Monday consisted of the first Mr. West Allegheny practice.  I was excited and after the practice, I was even more excited for the show.  This group consists of such a variety of people willing to give the show of a lifetime.  We only practiced the group dance, but it is coming along nicely.  I believe this will be the greatest Mr. West A ever.  We have so much talent to put on a fantastic show.  I am so excited to do this now.

That brings us to today... It was a senior field trip!  We went to the zoo and I had a fantastic time.  I partially give credit to the group I was with for the good time.  I was with Tom, Jared, Ethan, Brandon, Ty, Amanda, Sarah, and Ashley.  The whole time I couldn't stop smiling or laughing the whole time.  This was such a great group if kids and it was so nice to be with them for the day.  They are my type of people and are always just fun to be with.  The zoo was so nice.  I haven't been there in about 9 years and seeing all the animals was incredible.  I love animals.  Especially monkeys.  They are the coolest.  Jared is slightly afraid of them taking over the world now, and I understand.  They are so strong and skilled, and through evolution, they will become smarter.  Maybe even too smart.  But I am rambling... Needless to say it was a great time.

After track I slept.  It felt great to get a good nap in.  Napping is an incredible feeling no matter how short.  I felt refreshed.  After my nap, I went to Morgan's house with Josh to work on stats.  These are two more friends I see myself being close with forever.  I love her family as well.  They always ask how I'm doing and I just feel like they almost accepted me as a member of the family although I am not there very often.  While Morg and Josh were studying, Teen and I had a very nice talk.  We talked about college and she asked me a question I was never faced with by an adult.  She asked me what Eryne and I were going to do when I leave for Alabama.  I was actually shocked at the moment.  I told her we were going to make it work out and distance was just a number.  She smiled and gave me the best advice ever.  She told me to go for it.  If you love her, then things will work out and everything will be fine no matter how far you are.  It truly warmed my heart to hear that.  It made me feel so much more confident about the future knowing that adults believe in us as well because what I said is exactly what we are going to do.  We are going to make it through the distance without a single problem.  I just know it.  Morg, Josh, and I then proceeded to share a ton of laughs while Josh finished his senior projects.  The things we were saying were just hilarious and couldn't help but smile from ear to ear.  It was a great night.

Well blogger and readers, I missed you all.  Now that I have my life back on track I am back in action.  I hope you didn't miss me too much.  Thanks for reading this.  I love you all. Goodnight.

Haha I Am Such an Ass

Well today it'll be nice and short. It's all about hockey. We won in a wonderful fashion. A comeback for the ages where our team just out hustled their hearts out in the end. It was quite inspiring.

After the game I got myself in a little twitter fight with some freshman apparently no one likes in moon. I was called a skinny bitch and that I look like Clay Aiken. I would have my ass beat and the living shit would get kicked out at me. Not one to exactly fight, my comebacks were humorous. Complimenting his good looks and talking smack on running. In the end moon even had my back against this kid. It was a nice wake up call to him to see where he stands. I liked the reality check for this kid.

He messaged me on twitter later apologizing. I think it was out of fear truthfully which I actually liked. I never feel intimidating and to know that this kid fears me, shows he is all talk to action. I laughed without a response to him.

Aside from that I spent a lot of the day with my new hurdler friend. Josh Coury. We went shopping, ate, and went to the game together. He is a real great kid and is turning his life around. I'm really proud of him for that. He has priorities straight and will succeed with his head like it is. I really enjoyed today.

Well I guess that is all. I guess I just gotta thank Tom and all the Moon kids who had my Back. Y'all are awesome. Night all.

Silver and Gold

Hey all! I guess it's been a little while since I've wrote to all of you, but I guess my weekend was just so busy I didn't have enough time.  It was my birthday weekend and a lot of my friends were home from college so I had a lot to do for once.  This was truly the best weekend I've had in the longest time.  I saw so many people I haven't seen in a long time and catching up was just great.  Sitting at home alone today after track, I started to think of how different my life is going to be after high school.  I know a lot of people I go to school with right now will probably be nothing to me in a few years, but I like to think there will be a solid handful of kids that I'm going to be close with.

The future scares the hell out of me.  I am a person who loves my school and a lot of the people in it.  I want to be everyone's friend or at least be acquainted with them in same way.  Frau Zanella calls me the president.  I guess I just have that outgoing personality and it is starting to back fire a little bit on me.

Next year I  am going to college at the University of Alabama.  It is a 14 hour drive away and I'll only be able to come home on the long breaks.  With the inability to come back home, I kinda get filled with fear that I will be forgotten.  I am trying really hard to be able to keep a lot of my friends in high school with me.  I want them in my life most definitely.  But it scares me to think that they may move on.  I live off of friendship.  I care about anyone that hasn't done me wrong and will be there for anyone in a heart beat.  It scares me to think someday I won't be needed.  It's almost like I won't serve a purpose in their life anymore.  I don't want that at all.  This is the reason why I fear the future more than anything.  I love everyone in my life, and I don't want to lose them as time goes by in life.

There are certain people that I know will be in my life forever.  Since freshman year: Zack Fell, Dan Bruni, Jake Kreutzman, Justin Harbison, Joe Lanni, Mike Hutton, Kaci Vandergrift and Aaron McKinney have been my closest friends.  Since we became friends, we have stayed friends.  Even through college we have stayed the closest of friends and I know that they will be in my life forever.  There are others that I'm confident they will be here for a while such as Drew and Shields, but there are certain guarantees for people I'm not sure of.  I want to take the most optimistic approach and assume they'll always be here.  But I am never sure.  I question it every so often and it brings me to tears.  It is my goal to keep these people in my life for as long as they can.

There has been a certain saying that I heard when I was a young child. "You will always encounter new friends, but you should always keep the old.  Some are silver and the others are gold."

I am with my golden friends in high school.  They have been here for me longer than I see my college friends being around and I know that in the end I will look back and think that I am very happy that I met this person.  The people I'm with now mean the world to me and I love every single one of them.  They are all perfect people.

My Musical Review

Alright.  Well nothing big really happened in school today so I can't exactly talk about it.  The only thing I thought about was seeing my good friend Dave perform as the lead in the high school musical with Jared, Ethan, and Joe.  So I'll just talk about what happened there.

To start it off, I was extremely pleased to see everyone who attended.  The crowd couldnt have been more diverse.  Athletes, nerds, weird kids.  Everyone was there to show the support to the group of kids who have been to hell and back to put on the show of the year.  Let me tell you.  It was a great show.  We hung out in the lobby after getting our tickets and met with a bunch of people.  Jaclyn, Alyx, Tom, Jordan, Christine, Tiff, Ash, and Amanda were the main people we talked to for the most part.  I veered off a little to talk to a wrestler from Carlynton who was also there, and I spoke with a few of the band kids that I knew from ultimate frisbie earlier this year.  It was really nice to catch up with these people I haven't talked to in a while.  I'm going to make it a personal goal to stay close with these kids although theyre younger than me and have a lot of different interests.  They're great people who are a lot of fun to be around.  Surprisingly, I have a lot of similarities with the band kids.  We're equally as mature and just love to have fun.  But back to the show.

42nd Street is like the inception of musicals.  It's a musical, about a musical.  A big name director Julian Marsh (played by Dave) was struck by the Great Depression and was determined to put together the greatest show in the past 10 years.  He puts together a giant group of kids to perform and a big name stay.  Can't remember her name but it was played by Erin Rodgers.  She gets injured though and a first time performer, Peggy (played by Shannon Lisowski) takes the lead and has to take over the show.  There are also a bunch of side plots like Erin's love affair and the loving tension between Dave and Shannon.  Overall, I really liked the story.  The one's who sold it were definitely the kids in it.  I dont think a more perfect group of students could have put together a show like this.  The kid that absolutely stole the show was a sophomore named Ryan Borgo.

This kid did not have the lead role, but he played a major part in the play.  He was easily the most talented kid in the show.  He is an amazing dancer with a wonderful voice.  I'm putting money down that I see this kid on broadway one day.  He loves this kinda stuff and with his talent, he'll be very successful.  He lead many songs, and I was impressed a million times.  He was the performer of the night for me.

Dave and Shannon played the main 2 roles in the play.  Dave had no experience with acting or live performing until today.  Shannon has been a dancer and singer since we were friends at Wilson Elementary.  Dave really showed his talents tonight.  A lot of people knew he had an amazing voice, and he highlighted it tonight.  He didn't miss a single note.  What surprised me the most was his acting.  I was not sure what to expect, but he definitely exceeded all my expectations.  He pulled me into the play and I was incredibly impressed.  Shannon looked like a natural.  Her voice, dance, and acting just was spectacular.  It was obvious that she has been doing this for years.  I can also see her performing it in the big time some day.  She has what it takes.

Other great performances came from the likes of Marina Lauff, Joey Bandi, Vaugh Shane Camrada, and Jaymie Macek.  The only person I knew performed before was Marina.  I knew she acted and danced but I was completely unaware of the pipes on this girl.  She can sing like a champ and I think she could have played the lead just like Shannon.  She had a real nice role though and thoroughly impressed me.  As for the others, I didn't know what to expect, but they were great.  It was obvious Joey loved being on the stage.  He looked like he had a great time and that's what made his performance grand.  You can't look good doing something unless you're having fun with it.  Vaugh and Jaymie surprised me the most.  I had no clue of the skills on these two.  They both had amazing voices, dance moves, and their acting was on point.   I couldn't pinpoint a single mistake they made.

Overall, the show was great.  I definitely will be seeing it a few more times throughout these 2 weeks and I recommend it to anyone.  It was a great night and a spectacular show.

Can't Bring Me Down Tonight

Today was without a doubt in my mind the best birthday I have ever had.  I've never felt so loved, appreciated, and important to all these people around me.  I am so grateful for all the things they have done for me over the year and I want to thank them from the bottom of my heart for everything they have done for me.  Days like these really show who really cares about you, and it really showed today.

The day for me technically started at midnight.  The first text I received was from Eryne, followed by Jaclyn, then Kaci, Morgan, Carissa, Tommy, Johnny K, and Catie.  All of these texts meant the absolute world to me.  I am a person who understands that sleep is one of the most important things for a teenagers.  Someone who may have given up their sleep strictly to wish me a happy birthday the minute the clock strikes 12 is someone who is forever special in my heart.  Along with everyone giving up their sleep, the content of the texts brought me to tears of joy.  Eryne's was the first I read the whole night.  I was already flowing after 1 text.  I truly love her to death and she means the world to me.  The fact she was the first person to wish me a happy birthday and my entrance into adulthood means a lot.  Morgan's Jaclyn's and Kaci's were next.  After reading 4 birthday texts, I was a complete mess.  I could hardly read my screen!  These girls are my best friends.  I've known them all forever and they will forever hold a special place in my heart.  They are my sisters.  The best friends imaginable and I am so blessed to have them in my life as well.

The day then started off just amazingly when I entered school.  I was greeted with happy birthdays from nearly everyone I passed and I couldn't help but wear this stupid huge smile on my face.  I couldn't help it.  I was so happy.  I was greeted by Morgan and Jaclyn with birthday hugs and I just knew my day was going to be amazing.  Mara then came and did the exact same thing.  Just all these people are the best.  They know exactly what to do to get me in a great mood.  Eryne was running late but got to the locker just in time for me to see her before the first period of the day.  I finally got my birthday kiss.:)

I usually dread going into English because I hate the senior project, but everyone there wished me a happy birthday, so I guess the class was a success.  I didn't want to kill myself staring at a computer today.  It was the best start to school in a while.  The day continued with more wishes, smiles, and hugs.  I was practically on cloud 9 from the attention I was given today.  Not to sound a little greedy or diva-ish, but I really like attention.  I'm not hungry for it, but I really enjoyed being noticed.  It's something that kinda gets me through the day if I can make a group of kids laugh or smile.  It's a great feeling.

After first period I arrived at my locker with a big sign and an even bigger balloon on my locker from Kaci.  She then proceeded to run out of Ferk's room with a big cookie cake saying "Happy Birthday Levi."  I almost cried right there.  Like I said, I was very very happy today.

5th and 6th period were easily my favorite two periods of the day.  2 German classes sang happy birthday to me and Frau continually cracked jokes about adulthood.  Needless to say, her jokes made being an adult sound a little overrated.  I'm not too worried though. I'll always be a kid.  In the German 3 class I sit in with, we also started watching Swing Kids.  It is one of my favorite movies we've ever watching in my German career, and I'm looking forward to watching it for the next few days.  In German 4, we practically did nothing but talk and it was a nice relaxing period.  The highlight of the class was seeing John Kaltenecker in class.  I haven't seen that kid in a while and he gave me a big birthday hug.  He will be receiving the shout out tonight for many reasons.

The rest of school and track cruised by.  So it brings me to the short amount of time I got to spend with Eryne.  She had softball at 7 so I only had about and hour and a half to hang with her, but it was definitely an amazing time.  She got me a gift that I'll be wearing at school tomorrow and it is probably the best shirt I have ever received.  She knows me way too well and knows the perfect gift to get me. I truly love it.

This brings me to where I am now.  I've kinda just been hanging around so it's time for John's shout out...

It feels like I have known John Kaltenecker forever now.  We started off as enemies on the baseball diamond during the Oakdale youth league.  His dad had a team, but I was on Brett Rackie's team.  We later became teammates on the all star team later that year.  That is where our friendship started.  I always like the kid, but never really got to know him until about last year.  With the mutual friends we had, John and I started to hang out a lot.  We became pretty damn close friends and he is a great dude.  He will always have my back, and I'll always have his.  There is another big thing I have to give him a ton of credit for.  He is one of or possibly the biggest blog reader I have.  He always gives me a nice text after a post saying how he loved it and how I should keep going.  Johnny K is a person who represents exactly why I blog.  He is someone who definitely supports me for this and I love him for that.  He is like another brother of mine.  I love him like family

Thank everyone for reading this and thank everyone for making my birthday so special.  I don't know how any future birthdays could top one like today.  I love you all and goodnight!!

Labeled an Adult, Always A Kid

Well at this exact moment, I am 1 hour and 25 minutes away from my eighteenth birthday.  I will officially be considered an adult in this world.  Although I will be considered an adult to most adults, on the inside I will always be a kid.  Growing up seems exciting and all, and I am sure that I will grow up a bit over time, but I cannot see myself any other way.  I cannot see myself as a boring adult behind a computer doing a job in a cubicle.  Although that could possibly be my career, I will not be the average office worker.  I intend on being able to make fun out of every opportunity that arises.  I will always be the fun, carefree guy out of the office and hope to keep a lot of the friends I have now.  A birthday is an exciting day.  It's a day all about me.  I hate to be selfish at times, but I think everyone deserves a day.  I'm very excited for mine.

Today was actually a very great day.  Aside from getting terribly graded papers in statistics, everything was easy,  and things just flew right into track.  Track on the other hand, was a bit more difficult.

This was definitely our most difficult work out thus far.  We sprinted for a total of 2400 meters in intervals of 300 meter sprints.  Currently my legs feel like absolute death.  I also was quite embarrassed to be in the group I was.  The best runners were in the group and I kinda got smoked.  My times were solid, but not up to the standards of the group I was in.  I looked a lot worse than I was performing based on the rest of my teammates.  The work out ended, I stretched like no other, and called my mommy to pick me up.  It was shopping time.

I was in dire need for new running shoes and spikes.  We made it to my favorite running store in Robinson and my mom spent a pretty penny on my shoes this year.  I really have to appreciate what she does for me more.  Not just the money she spends on me, but the way she is always there for me.  I know we bicker, words get exchanges, and I get angry with her, but in the end she is still my mother and I love her with all my heart.

Now I am here in my room.  I haven't left aside from a shower I took after track as I am too sore to move.  I am now just waiting for midnight to hit so my birthday can finally begin.  It's been a tradition for me to stay up until midnight on my birthday because Kaci and I always text each other at midnight for our birthdays.  Its simply a gesture to show how much we mean to each other, but it's been going on for 4 years, and it will continue as long as we are friends.  That means it will go on forever.

Kaci is someone I never gave their own moment in my blog.  I feel like tonight is the time.  Mine and Kaci's friendship started in 8th grade.  I honestly couldn't tell you how it started, but we had social studies with Mr. Bears in 8th grade and we talked pretty much every day.  I developed this little middle school crush on her, but she always had a boyfriend and I never had a chance.  In the end though, I'm glad we never dated.  If something bad happened and our friendship started to end, I'm not sure where I would see myself now.  She has been there for me every time I was in need, and I have done the exact same for her.  You can basically say that we are best friends.  The best of friends, and it has been like that for practically forever now.  I can honestly say I love her like family.  I will openly say she is practically my sister and I have her back in anything she needs.  She has mine too.  She's proved it plenty of times and I trust her with my life.  Kaci has been through some rough times in her life.  She has turned to me for a majority of the problems and I feel like I know more about her than I do almost any other person.  Kaci is strong.  She has overcame more pain that I can ever imagine experiencing, but she always comes out on top with a smile on her face.  Sure there are tears in the process, but in the end she winds up happy.  I'm proud to say that I helped her on these roads to recovery.  Now we are in our senior year.  Like every friendship, we have had our ups and downs.  In the end, we always end up closer than we were before.  I love this girl and I will always be there for her.  She is starting her future and is moving on to great things in life.  I have a lot of faith in her and she's going to be able to tackle any challenge in her way in college.  I am so proud of her for everything she has done, and I know that we'll always stay close.  That's what matters the most for us when we move on out of high school.  She is the best friend any person could imagine having in their life.

That's all I got guys.  In 1 hour and 5 minutes I will be capable of being put in jail.  I'm not too concerned about that though.  I'll be playing life very safe now... maybe.  You never know what I'm going to do.  Don't expect me to change who I am anytime soon though.  Levi Seifert will always be the Levi Seifert you know and love.  Thanks for reading everybody.  I love you.

Track and Hockey

Well this is my final blog of the night.  I'm finally caught up, and I feel quite accomplished.  It feels good to get all this typed out again.  So here we go...

I can't say much about school today really aside from it was my first day back with Eryne and it just felt perfect to be able to kiss her again.  It felt good to just have that in my daily routine of things.  But aside from that the only exciting school moment I had was Mr. Quinn talking about explosive diarrhea.  So I'll just skip ahead to track.

I'm realizing track is the true sport I love the most.  The people, coaches, and just the pure care free fun makes it a priceless experience.  No matter how sore I am, I'm always ready to go.  Today was the first day we did hurdles and I just received a ton of compliments from my coach to start practice off.  Ben has known me for four years and knows what I am capable of.  He used me for every example and it felt nice to know that right now I am the best.  I am number one on the team for hurdles and I guess I just feel accomplished.  I am really excited for the year ahead of me.  We worked out a decent workout and let me tell you.  My friend Josh Coury is really impressing me.  He has the potential to get himself into the starting relay and be one of our top sprinters.  I really wish he would have started earlier and would have been part of this track tradition for all these years.  We have him now though and that's what matters the most.  The highlight of the day though was seeing the hurdle family come back.  Zach Simmen, Tommy Bruni, Mike Ross, Jenna Reilly, Linda Zysk, and I are the returning members.  We have quite a few new members this year.  No boys, which means a lot of people will have to step up next year when I leave, but a lot of new potential in the girls.  The breakout hurdler this year is going to either be Lauren or Linda.

This is Linda's second years.  She's quick and worked her way to being one of our top last year.  She is going to get the technique and fundamentals down this year and really turn some heads from the decent freshman she was last year into a really competitive hurdler in the section and possibly WPIAL this year.

Lauren is a freshman.  Although she is a freshman, boy is she freaking fast.  Like too fast for a girl her age it seems like.  She just started hurdling this year in indoor track and dominated.  She even broke the school freaking record!  I have such high hopes for her this year and her next three years.  I'll pray she stays healthy all these years like I do every night for every member of the team.  She has the potential to be freaking amazing at running.  She has her mind set on it and isn't distracted by anything else.  She has the right attitude to succeed and I know she will.

Track ended and it was time for the hockey game.  Final game of the season as on of the biggest fans and I was ready.  The game was just great.  We got up 3-0 and looked amazing on the ice.  We looked a little sloppy at one point in the game and it resulted in letting up a goal, but it's ok.  We picked it back up.  The sad part of the game was I didn't see the 4th goal or most of the 3rd period.  Gardock, Bonjo, Eryne, Jaclyn, Morgan, Tom, Dustin, Dalton, and I were all kicked out by a cop for chanting profanities.  I will admit I took part until the warning and then I stopped.  Kids in the third row of the fans started it up again and the cop had enough.  Honestly he was doing his job, he just made the wrong decision on who to throw out.  Rows 1 and 2 were ejected.  We argued and were threatened with citations.  That word got me right down to the escort out. A huge shout out goes to Dylan and Tommy.  Dylan was playing with the cop asking him to move while he continued to watch the game.  Tom's exit was epic.  He stood up, raised his arms in the air to get the crowd going, and left peacefully.  We were then escorted outside.  We kinda just sat there and talked and joked around with everyone waiting for the game to end.  The cops had to watch us until we left so we weren't allowing them to see the game if we couldn't.  Eventually, the cop broke down and let us in for the final 6 minutes.  Our return got everyone going and the game was back for our viewing.  The game ended with a 4-1 victory solidifying our spot as the number 1 season champions.  The game was an epic way to end the season with the best fans in the building getting kicked out for cheering too hard.  It was a great night.

Now this is where I am today.  Sitting on my laptop in my room laughing at everything that happened today.  It was an amazing day to say the least.  But I have to give one final shout out.  This one is to my sister Lexi.  We bicker and fight and in our past I've threatened her life quite a bit.  Like family, we always end up loving each other in the end.  She made the sign for me tonight which was huge for me.  She really helped me out tonight and I promised her this paragraph for that.  She is a lot like me in a lot of ways aside from intellect.  She is immature, athletic, and a fun person with lots of friends.  I see myself a lot in her which has potential to be not so great in some aspects.  She is entering high school next year and needs to keep a level head and be smarter about her decisions than I was during my high school career.  Family is forever and I love her to death.  She has a bright future ahead of her.  I don't know exactly what she is going to do, but I know she'll succeed and be happy.

Well guys, this is the end of the night.  I'm all caught up and satisfied with everything that has happened to me recently.  I got really lucky, and have learned a lot.  I learned who the truly important people in my life are and I will love all of them forever.  Thank you for reading all of these.  I know it was a lot.  Goodnight everyone.  I love you

All Mistakes Can Be Fixed

Monday morning.  My first day single.  I knew this could be the hardest day of my life until my birthday dinner after track practice.  Eryne agreed to still go which is where I knew I would initiate my plan.  I had help from Mara, Tom, and Kaci on what to do and I had the highest hopes for forgiveness although I probably didn't deserve it.  School was pretty much a blur.  I know I had people ask me how I was and all but that was pretty much it.  I was out of it the whole day.  My mind couldn't focus on learning with everything going on.

The first day of track was the first time I was happy all day.  I got to see everyone coming out and a ton of my friends.  It was also very nice to see my coaches.  It has been a little while since seeing them except for Will and it was nice to catch up because I've known them for 4 years now.  They're interested in my life and I was interested in theirs.  Our workout should not have been hard for the average person.  We were supposed to take breaks within our intervals but I ran as often as possible.  I could feel my mind clearing a ton and it felt good to run.  I was a lot less emotional and my mind was finally free.  Sadly enough everything came back after the workout.  I was nervous but Kaci assured me everything would be ok.  I received some good luck texts from some really close friends and they just wanted to know how it ended after dinner and everything.  I promised I would but I was off to eat and it was time to hope life had its own rewind button and I could get the girl of my dreams back.

We rode up together, just me and her, which made it a lot easier to talk to her.  I immediately apologized and explained myself out.  I said exactly how I felt and what I was thinking like I said in the previous post.  We agreed a pretty much nullify the previous night's events.  It was the most relieving feeling in the world.  Dinner went very well.  Mine and Tanner's families were there and we all ate a large amount of food.  It was the best dinner for my birthday to date.  Eryne was there and she was mine again.  It couldn't have gone more perfectly.  We rode back home and said our goodbyes.  I thanked her for accepting me, and accepting my mistake.  In the end it was good for us.  I know I'll never allow myself to become so stupid again and throw away the person I love for a reason that wasn't nearly good enough.  That was my Monday.  A damn good Monday.

Before I went to bed though, I ended up talking to Tommy on the phone for 56 minutes.  The conversation varied from love, college, food, fishing, and the future.  Tom has been through a lot and had quite the wild senior year.  He has a lot more strength than a lot of people I know and I'm confident he'll find that dream girl.  He made the perfect statement from the saying "there are plenty of fish in the sea."  He compared West A to Leopold Lake.  It's full of the occasional nice bass, but a lot of stupid useless bluegill.  There are also some rainbow trout that are just a mystery as to why they are here.  There are also fish that are like a prize fish.  They're beautiful to look at but you can't do anything with them.  They're insides are shitty and aren't worth the catch unless you just want to mount them on your wall with no attachment.  Tommy wants to work his way to the Atlantic Ocean and find a marlin, or any majestic fish in that ocean.  He'll be deep sea fishing there soon though.  In a few months he'll be in for the fishing trip of his life where he's going to send out his line and catch some really nice fish and eventually he's going to hook the state record that he can love and be proud of forever.  I have faith in you fisherman Tom.  Good things happen to good people and one day the weather will be perfect to reel in that state record.  You'll cherish it forever and it will be the greatest catch of your life.  I know that.

Well all,  I have one more blog ahead of me tonight.  If you read all of these, thank you.  It does mean a lot.  I'll be typing away ASAP for this final day until I am finally caught up.  Thank you all again.  You're amazing and I love you.

From the Best Night to the Worst Day

Alright, blog 2.  This is sunday morning.

Well I was the first awake because it's nearly impossible for me to sleep past 8 am.  I don't know why, I guess I always had this feeling I would miss so much if i slept too long.  As a teen it is so redundant because I'm like the only kid awake for 3 hours until anyone is willing to do anything.  But back to the story.  I received a call from Jake.  He woke up and needed let in the dorm building.  I had to wake up Harbo to get him and looking at Jake was honestly the most entertaining thing ever.  He was sitting on a park bench in the freezing cold wearing shorts and a hoodie.  He looked quite miserable.  But I found it entertaining.  He came in and we hung out until around 4pm.  We ate Chinese, played NHL, and watched TV.  We did pretty much anything we could in order to pass time until Jake was ready to drive. We finally got on the road in and was headed back to good ole Pennsylvania.  My favorite state as of now.  Ohio sucks.  The quote of the night was "Ohio is flat and stupid."  I agree fully.  People cannot drive, or take your order at a restaurant, and the roads are straight and flat.  There is no excitement to the roads in Ohio.  We got home around 530-6ish and this is where the pain started.

Eryne and I were in a rough spot.  I won't get into a lot of details, but I was thinking I was going to break up with her.  I felt like I wasn't mature enough to withstand a very long relationship and I didn't think it was fair to put her through pain if all I did was doubt.  She wanted to see me and talk and I agreed.  She picked me up at 630 and we drove about 50 feet and we stopped at a stop sign.  She was already crying.  I knew this was the hardest decision I ever made.  We talked, and cried together, and had to drive to a new location.  We talked for 2 hours and cried the whole time.  I couldn't believe what I was doing.  In the end, it was over, and I was bawling my eyes out.  At that moment I realized I made a mistake.  I came home and explained everything to my mom.  Her words made me think a lot.  She told me I was much more mature than I make myself out to be.  From that moment I realized I had to pray life had a rewind button.  I confided to a few friends who came to me.  They helped me make the decision I was going to next.  I realized I had made a mistake after 3 hours of being single.  I thought how I would never experience all the great things about our relationship if she was never with me.  I realized I focused on the negatives way too much and didn't see all the great things.  I think the time of being single was a good thing though.  It opened my eyes to how much she means to me.  It made me realize that I need her and in the end, I think it was a good decision for the positives things have been now.

I eventually was able to sleep but had the worst dream of my life.  It was my 35th birthday and I was alone.  I was sitting in my living room by myself looking at all the pictures I took with Eryne.  I was crying and hating every minute of my life.  I guess I never moved on after all those years.  I ended up calling her to see how she had been.  It turned out all her dreams came true and she was happy with her husband and kids.  I woke up in a cold sweat and tears.  I knew I had to fix what I did.  That was the end of my night. In my next blog I'll go over what happened next on Monday.  Until then stay wonderful everyone.  You guys are great.  I love you.

Hobo Man vs The World: Akron Night 2

Ok readers, I'd like to apologize for my lack of writing.  To make it up, I'm making 4 posts to keep you updated on what's been going on for the past few days.  I was going through a rough time and didn't have the urge to blog.  I just wanted to sleep everything off.  But here we go with number 1.

My second day in Akron, Ohio will go down in the books as one of the most memorable days of my life.  We woke up around 10 oclock and just hung out in Harbo's dorm.  We played NHL, ate some donuts, and just chilled for a while.  We hung out and just chilled and talked for a few solid hours until we decided to make a run to the Akron Target for a soda run for Joe's house later that night.  We drove there, almost died because Ohio drivers are so shitty (which I don't get because everything is flat) but successfully made it back safe.  From there, we went to McDonalds until Joe's roommates's tutor left and we could hang out without being a bother.  This is where the first big event of the night happened.

We went into McDonalds and this crazy homeless guy entered the same time as us.  We already realized he was messed up in some way.  He was talking to himself, pacing back and forth, and talking to himself.  He was using a lot of vulgar language that I can't really use on this blog, but let me tell you, he was out of his mind.  We got in line and the man confronted us.  He made no sense, he approached us, said we were f faces, and said he'd cut and kill us.  We just kinda laughed it off, ordered our food and waited to sit down.  We sat down and he sat right behind us.  He wasn't facing us, but he was right there.  Lucky for me (sarcasm), I was the closest to him.  He kept talking to himself and we could't help but crack up.  Luckily for us, he didn't notice, but he noticed the group of guys staring, pointing and laughing, at him from across McDonalds.  This set him off.  He got on his feet and started screaming at them saying he would kill them and "ef them up".  Everyone was just laughing and it drove him berserk.  The kids started talking back just saying "oh really, are you?" in order to anger him the most.  It started to escalate and I really thought things were going to go down.  The manager lady came out and told him he wasn't allowed in here because of "last time" and he would have to be out or she would call the police.  He said he'd be out and told her to eff off.  Another hilarious moment.  He made the biggest mess at his table,  He ate his whole burger in one bite and spit it out on the table chewed up.  That was really gross.  He then poured his coffee all over the table, took his chicken sandwich out of the wrapper and threw the wrapper on the ground.  He then proceeded to put the opened sandwich in his pocket and left.  We all crowded around out table and waved and laughed.  He gave us two middle fingers and stood there.  Waiting for us to come out.  We weren't done eating so we didn't leave.  The frigid weather got the best of him and he disappeared.  I received a text from Joe saying we could come now and we headed out.  For the rest of the night, our motto was "Crazy Hobo Man vs the World."  Boy was it funny.

We went to Joe's and it was the same people as last night with the addition of our good friend Staci and her boyfriend Phillip.  We partied there all night really until about 330 in the morning.  Around that time it was time to go.  We left a friend behind though, Jake fell asleep on the couch and refused to leave.  So we headed out to Penn Station for some late night sandwiches before we went back to Harbo's for bed.  At Penn Station, there was another memorable experience.

At the Station, there was a large group of African Americans about to get into a fight.  They were talking smack the whole time and we thought it was about to go down.  We were placing bets and I picked the 6'5 kid with the teardrop tattoo.  I was confident I was going to win.  In the end, one group backed out and left and said they were going to do some illegal substance abuse.  We sat their and ate in peace.  I had the greatest sandwich ever.  A chicken parmigiana sandwich with a mountain dew and a small fry.  It was so freaking good.  I really wish there was a Penn Station around here.  I'd eat there all the time.

We finally went back to Harbo's and went to bed.  I was so satisfied with the night.  I was with all my friends, had more laughs then I ever had, some some crazy stuff, and was just happy the whole time.  It was a great night all in all.

This is blog one of 4 tonight everybody.  I'll try to bust this next one out soon but I need to get ready for the hockey game.  Dylan is picking me up and I need to get ready to go.  So stay tuned for the next chapter of today's 4 part blog.  I love you all.  Peace out cub scouts.

Akron Night 1

Well I survived night one. I've been with a bunch of good kids and am having a fantastic time. I love being with my boys. It's a great time. I finally met Joes girlfriend finally and I like her. She's a really nice girl and reminds me a lot about Joe. We broke a toilet, drew all over the birthday boy, and fell right asleep. It was a great night.

I'm feeling a bit indifferent though. I feel like things are a little weird between my best friend kaci and I. We talked last night for a while and I guess I'm not sure how to make of the conversation. I liked it though. It made me feel good about myself and it reminded me why I love her as my best friend. We've been through a lot and I still love her unconditionally. She's someone that'll be here in my life forever.

That's all I got guys. It's tough to blog from a phone. I'll keep you updated on my day tomorrow. I love you all. Goodnight.

A Ride in to the Weekend of My Life

Well I'm in the car with Jake and Aaron on our way to Akron. I'm basing my blog on this ride. Me and Jake have talked for 2 hours about life. Especially relationships. Jake went through a rough time but I won't get into details. Needless to say these 5 months have been a very wild ride for him. He's a great friend and I'm looking forward to the weekend with him with all my older friends. It's bound to be a memorable one for sure.

On a side note Id like to give a shout out to the swim team. Another WPIAL title is a huge accomplishment. I'm so proud of you girls. Also to Goga. Congrats my man. You did it. You're awesome buddy. Congrats.

Well that's all guys. It's a short and sweet one. Thanks for reading. Love you all

Dedication

Today I was at my final wrestling tournament ever as a member of the West Allegheny wrestling team.  I was not wrestling. I was merely a fan, but I feel like it is my duty as a member of the team to stay dedicated to my team until the season is officially over.  Jordan and I were the only kids that were not wrestling to show up.  I think that shows a lot about how much the team actually meant to these kids.  It actually sickened me knowing that our own team wouldn't take the time out of their day to support the guys they have been working with all year.  To me it shows a lack of dedication to a team and a lot of selfishness.  That is really, all I can say today.  It was a pretty dull day aside from a few aspects.

In school we had an assembly about teen dating violence.  There was a speaker who told us about how is daughter was stabbed 16 times because she broke up with her boyfriend.  For a relationship to work, both partners have to be dedicated into making sure the other is happy at all times.  You cannot control your significant other and isolate them from the rest of the world.  They have friends and other people they want to see.  Being clingy, obsessive, and controlling will only drive the one you love away.

While writing this blog and reading it in my head I've realized it isn't that good.  I'm sorry I guess its just being tired that is hindering my writing skills.  So I'll wrap this up.  I have 2 honorable mentions tonight.

Number one goes to the West Allegheny Swim Team.  When you look at the title of this blog, the swim teem defines dedication.  They practice twice a day, go on intense tapers to do their best, and work hard every single day.  This is why they are one of the most successful teams in West Allegheny and the state actually.  They work harder and want it more than anyone else.  They stay tough through the hardest workouts and never quit.  It shows true heart.  I really wish I could watch these girls at WPIAL's.  Sadly I too have to stay dedicated to my own team that I am a part of.

My second mention goes to my really good friend Morgan.  Little do people know, I am very very self conscious about everything I do, how I look, and what people think of me.  I have a pretty shitty self esteem.  Today Morgan simply complimented me.  It was nice and simple but it was a compliment.  It's been a long time since I received any positive feedback about anything I do.  I told her it made my day, and I think she may have thought I was kidding, but it truly did.  Although it was slightly humorous of how the compliment was said, I took it to heart and it meant a lot.  For the first time in quite a while I felt good about myself.  I kinda liked that old feeling I have not had in a while.  For that I thank you Morgan.  I love you best friend.  You have no clue how good you made me feel today.

Well that's all guys.  I'm sorry today was a pretty shitty blog.  I'm just pretty tired.  I promise improvement tomorrow.  I love you all.  Goodnight.

An Ode to Frau

Today was a prime example as to why Frau Zanella is the biggest inspiration in my life and my favorite teacher in the building.  This woman loves every student like her own child and will do anything in order to help them.  I personally know this as she was the only person in the building there for me during my incident with the police.  She is a straight shooter and will tell you like it is.  She knows everything and can give a piece of advice for every scenario given.  She is always right and knows what is best.  I'll never question her advice or decisions.  It seems to me like she is a flawless individual.  I first want to talk about what she has done for me in life before I go on about what she did today though.

I first met Frau on my way to Germany after my sophomore year.  I had yet to be acquainted with her but I was going to be one of her students the following school year.  From the get go I already loved her.  She was funny, easy to get along with, and already cared for us (kids she had yet to even meet) like her own.  She wanted us to have a fantastic time in this foreign country.  This is where our relationship started.  Frau appreciated my love for Germany.  I will say this with full confidence I got the absolute most out of my trip more than anyone else there.  I tried restaurants, different foods, spoke to natives, and made new friends from other schools within our group.  Frau and I had conversations every day about various topics.  In Germany she didn't seem like a teacher to me.  She seemed like one of my friends I have known for years.  She is just that kind of person you can hit it off with that easily.  After the end of the trip, she told me I was different from most kids in the world and I was going to be president.  I just kind of laughed at it, but it warmed me up inside.

Junior year was my first full year with Frau.  It was a difficult year, but it was the year I learned more about life than any other year.  This was all due to Frau.  This woman wants the best out of everyone and knows their true potential.  She gave us the most inspirational speeches that have given me tremendous help throughout my decisions in high school.  Junior year was also the year I decided to pursue German in college.  I owed this woman so much during my junior year just for her speaking.  It wasn't until senior year I can officially call her one of my best friends.

For my senior year I decided to take the 4th level of German.  I knew this class would be rigorous, and I also knew that it was the only way to get another year with Frau.  I knew I would need her for senior year.  I even was able to sign up for a study hall in her classroom when she has a German 3 class where I help her grade papers and do various work for her.  It is the least I can do for her.  She has saved my tail more than once.  There is one main moment that completely changed the way the I looked at Frau.  This is not negative if that is what you're thinking.  It is the transition of her becoming a great teacher to my biggest inspiration.

When I was caught drinking on school property, I was not afraid of my dad, my mom, Eryne, or the administration.  I was terrified of what Frau would think of me.  It brought me to tears thinking of what she was thinking.  I felt like the ultimate failure and didn't deserve to be loved like the rest of her students.  The next morning, I was advised to email my teachers to make them aware of my absence.  She was the first to reply and her letter back brought tears to me.  She informed me that she knew I was still a terrific young man and that she has faith I will get through everything.  While reading this I absolutely broke down.  It felt like the heavies weight was taken off my shoulders and everything was going to be okay.  I was no longer afraid of anything.  I returned to school for a 3 day in school suspension and Frau visited me on her free period.  She talked to me and I just listened. And cried.  She told me I was special and different from everyone else.  She said in all her years of teaching she never met a person like me.  Someone so spirited, able to rally the whole student body, and always optimistic.  She ended our long conversation with a hug where I was still bawling my eyes out.  That was exactly what I needed.  I made a goal to never disappoint her again.  I do not believe I have yet, and I refuse to ever again.  I could never hurt her like I feel like I did before.  She is too important of a person in my life.

Today, I sat through a speech Frau gave to German 3.  It was about how serious dating violence is and told us about her personal life.  She told us not to put up with anything.  Never put up with swearing.  Never stay with someone when you are mistreated once because it will only get worse.  She believes that your significant other should feel lucky to have you and you should feel lucky to have them.  Fortunately enough for me, I have that.  Frau talked a lot more about how serious it was but I started to think in the middle.  I can think of a scenario for one of my friends in each topic she made.  It made me realize how unhealthy a lot of relationships are.  I felt bad for all my friends who suffered for a long time where they should have escaped the pain a long time ago.  Frau has that power.  She can make you think a ton.  A good kind of thinking that will better yourself when you figure everything else.  She is a woman I am going to think about in college, and cry because I won't be seeing her every single day.  After everything we have been through, I can say she is one of my best friends.

Although I will not be running for president, I will do whatever it takes to make Frau proud.  Her opinions means more to me than that of my own family.  I don't know why, but every time I make a decision I think what Frau would have to say about it.  As much as she has done for me I feel the need to make her proud to say she taught me.  I received one strike and I'm not allowing myself to get to two.  Everyone deserves to have a Frau in their life.  A lot of us are just lucky that we have THE REAL FRAU.

A Close Call

Wow. I almost didn't get a blog in tonight! After track today I ate and passed out until now. I'm still pretty tired to I want to bust this out before I'm back asleep.

Today was a weird day I guess. I did. not want to go to school today by any means but I made it. I kinda coasted by until German. Today we started watching a movie about the Holocaust. I really don't like the Holocaust strictly for how much I think when the subject is brought up. So many unanswered questions that I can only draw am opinion for my answer and never know what's right. How could a man even think of this? What was done to him? How was it kept a secret so well? How did this actually get pulled off? I could literally ask questions for three hours and never get a real answer. Most of the people involved are gone so
my mind will always wonder and I'll never get an answer.

Another reason I despise the Holocaust is how emotional I get. Frau said this is the happiest part in the movie and I already cried. I feel bad for both parties. The Jews suffered for years and it is so depressing yet inspiring how they were able to move on and live a lIfe after this. I never could. There are certain daily life things that I can hardly get by like questioning friendship. I could never move on questioning humanity every single minute of every single day year after year of torture. I also feel bad and slightly embarrassed for the German in me. I'm a mixed breed, but when anyone asks me i say I am German. Germans are great people. I was fortunate enough to become good friends with an exchange student last year and he didn't enjoy Holocaust talk. He wasn't even alive or thought of but he was embarrassed. You should never be embarrassed of who you are. I will say I am German with pride, e
embrace my heritage the best I can, accept the mistakes my family overseas made and always stay proud to my roots. I would not want to born any other way.

The rest of my day was coasted through, track was hell and knocked me out until now. I actually had a conversation with a friend waiting for a ride home today. That person is Jenna Reilly and she is getting the shout out tonight.

J Rei is one of my track sisters. I cannot say she is one of my best friends but we have that special track bond like I do with all my other track siblings. We talked about college Andy future. She asked a ton of questions and was really interested in my life. As simple as that was, it made my whole day. It is a great feeling knowing someone is interested in your life. Someone is there willing to listen to you and wants to know about you. Jenna, you made my day today. Thank you. You are the best.

Well readers thats it for tonight. Thanks for taking you time. I love you all. Sweet dreams

A Runner's Lovers

Alright people. Im just going to jump right into it for this one. Here we go.

Well my day started off on the shit side. I woke up on time, showered, got ready, and when I was all ready to get going, I realized my mom and siblings were still asleep. Boy was I pissed. I hate coming late for stupid reasons I cannot control. I'm definitely on the verge of a Saturday soon. It sucks big time especially because this time it is not my fault at all.

School actually made my day a lot better. It kinda flies by now that I care less and less so I really can't complain. What really got me in the best mood was when my friend Jake texted me and said he was coming home Friday to pick me up so we can go to Akron. I know it's going to be a fun time and seeing all my friends will be a nice change. It'll be good for me I think. I had a period of joy until stats. I finally had to take my midterm I've been putting off for a while. I don't think I did too well but lll accept that as my fault. I never prepared myself for that. The next thing that happened was track.

Today at track I was nervous. The workout was hard but by the time we it to running I didnt even care. I had already seen my good friend B Krszz (the runner, not the rapper) who is home from college. I also got to have a good time being an engineer with Will Page setting up the high jump mats. Boy did we feel stupid doing that.

Eventually we started running and I felt alright. My speed is still a little low but in working on it. I really need to start hurdling though. I feel like I need to practice my skill at least twice this week. I want to be a step ahead of the competition. After our workout ended I met up with Brandon and Rj and just sat around and talked. We ended up going to Subway with the Costa family and Will. We sat at a table, told stories, and just talked. As you can maybe guess I'll be dedicating a paragraph to B and one to Rj. I'll get to that in a sec.

After practice I went home and cleaned my room so I could go out with Eryne for a little. That is where I just came from actually. We hung around until my how started and she massaged my legs. I am so in debt to her for how she takes care of me. I'll make it up somehow. We watched the voice on tv for the next 2 hours until I had to leave. I never have a bad day when I spend t with her. I can guarantee that I'll be happy anytime I get to spen with her. She is the best.

Now it's time for the two dedications tonight. I'll start with Brandon. I've known this kid since seventh grade. We ran together pretty much our whole lives. We only had one year apart unto this year and that's just because he's older than me. Brandon and I grew really close over the years. I guess you kinda have to when you spend over 2/3 a school year with a kid at meets, practices, and bus rides. We became really good friends when I started to get better I think. It's hard to be a ba runner and hangout with the elite kids. They're a main reason why I worked my way up to the number one hurdle spot. I wanted to be part of the elite group. After that we got even closer. We went to more meets and I was lucky enough to watch him at states his senior year. This kid really makes me proud to go to West A and be a member of track. He is one of the hardest workers out there and is incredibly determined. I know he'll accomplish great things just with his attitude on everything. I love this kid.

Rj is one of the youngins Brandon and I took under our wings. I was trying to sway him to the fun goon squad. Brandon wanted him trying. Brandon won so I took Rj under a wing for something else. A much more fun wing. He is my favorite underclassmen. He is mature enough to hang out with and fun enough to never get boring. I'll feel bad leaving him at West A. I wish he was older and I would have gotten to know him sooner. He's a good for d except he never answers his phone. He has a great shot at accomplishing things while running. I can't wait to hear about him wearing gold around his neck for various championships these next few years. I'll be keeping in touch with him and making sure he going down the right path. I love this kid like a little brother I actually want.

Well that's all I got folks. You're all still amazing and thanks for reading. Love you all. Goodnight

A Runner's Lovers

Alright people. Im just going to jump right into it for this one. Here we go.

Well my day started off on the shit side. I woke up on time, showered, got ready, and when I was all ready to get going, I realized my mom and siblings were still asleep. Boy was I pissed. I hate coming late for stupid reasons I cannot control. I'm definitely on the verge of a Saturday soon. It sucks big time especially because this time it is not my fault at all.

School actually made my day a lot better. It kinda flies by now that I care less and less so I really can't complain. What really got me in the best mood was when my friend Jake texted me and said he was coming home Friday to pick me up so we can go to Akron. I know it's going to be a fun time and seeing all my friends will be a nice change. It'll be good for me I think. I had a period of joy until stats. I finally had to take my midterm I've been putting off for a while. I don't think I did too well but lll accept that as my fault. I never prepared myself for that. The next thing that happened was track.

Today at track I was nervous. The workout was hard but by the time we it to running I didnt even care. I had already seen my good friend B Krszz (the runner, not the rapper) who is home from college. I also got to have a good time being an engineer with Will Page setting up the high jump mats. Boy did we feel stupid doing that.

Eventually we started running and I felt alright. My speed is still a little low but in working on it. I really need to start hurdling though. I feel like I need to practice my skill at least twice this week. I want to be a step ahead of the competition. After our workout ended I met up with Brandon and Rj and just sat around and talked. We ended up going to Subway with the Costa family and Will. We sat at a table, told stories, and just talked. As you can maybe guess I'll be dedicating a paragraph to B and one to Rj. I'll get to that in a sec.

After practice I went home and cleaned my room so I could go out with Eryne for a little. That is where I just came from actually. We hung around until my how started and she massaged my legs. I am so in debt to her for how she takes care of me. I'll make it up somehow. We watched the voice on tv for the next 2 hours until I had to leave. I never have a bad day when I spend t with her. I can guarantee that I'll be happy anytime I get to spen with her. She is the best.

Now it's time for the two dedications tonight. I'll start with Brandon. I've known this kid since seventh grade. We ran together pretty much our whole lives. We only had one year apart unto this year and that's just because he's older than me. Brandon and I grew really close over the years. I guess you kinda have to when you spend over 2/3 a school year with a kid at meets, practices, and bus rides. We became really good friends when I started to get better I think. It's hard to be a ba runner and hangout with the elite kids. They're a main reason why I worked my way up to the number one hurdle spot. I wanted to be part of the elite group. After that we got even closer. We went to more meets and I was lucky enough to watch him at states his senior year. This kid really makes me proud to go to West A and be a member of track. He is one of the hardest workers out there and is incredibly determined. I know he'll accomplish great things just with his attitude on everything. I love this kid.

Rj is one of the youngins Brandon and I took under our wings. I was trying to sway him to the fun goon squad. Brandon wanted him trying. Brandon won so I took Rj under a wing for something else. A much more fun wing. He is my favorite underclassmen. He is mature enough to hang out with and fun enough to never get boring. I'll feel bad leaving him at West A. I wish he was older and I would have gotten to know him sooner. He's a good for d except he never answers his phone. He has a great shot at accomplishing things while running. I can't wait to hear about him wearing gold around his neck for various championships these next few years. I'll be keeping in touch with him and making sure he going down the right path. I love this kid like a little brother I actually want.

Well that's all I got folks. You're all still amazing and thanks for reading. Love you all. Goodnight

Number 2 Much Better

Ok everyone like I said I was making sure I was having a good day today. Although I didn't do much I can say today was a very good day. I was tired from a night at Beans' but everything was ok. I spent a majority of my day with Mike Frankowski we worked on German, ate, talked, and laughed at a hilarious black tv show. It was a good time. We shared stories had some laughs and shared our opinions on. a bunch of subjects going on in school. It was a well spent 4 hours.

Today I also learned there are people that are on my side with things and completely agree with me. Those main two people are Mara and Tommy. We talked about different subjects in my life but we could both relate and takes for a decent amount of time. Theyre special people and I know they're there for me. I like having conversations like that. They know a lot about what I'm going through and wish me the best. I am very thankful for them.

Today was a very good day. I was productive, got a lot off my mind, and learned that I have 2 really good friends by my side. I hope I can make it up to them for being there for me. I know I have their backs whenever they need an ear to listen or just a person to hang out with. Tom is getting his license soon so maybe he can just pick me up and we can hang a lot more. Being the only 2 seniors without the privilege to drive really is a hindrance on our friendship on the basis of hanging out. It'll be fixed soon. I'm excited hell be on the road finally. I guess I'm next haha.

Well it's almost time for bed. School tomorrow and such. I love you guys. Nighty night all

Sunday Morning Rain is Falling (well not really)

Well today is a day I'll probably blog twice but I kinda need to vent and rant about things that have been going on my mind for a while now.  This is one hundred percent on the subject of friendship.

As I was the only one awake at Beans' house last night I ended up reading Mara's blog she wrote late last night. It solely was about her 2 best friends and the things they do together and how happy each one of them makes each other.  I started to think if I had that anymore.  I know I have friends like that but they're away at college.  In high school I'm a bit of an outcast I believe.  I do not have a strong group of friends that I can call the BEST friends I have.  Truthfully, I'm not sure if a majority of them even consider me a friend, but more of an outreach to help with problems.  This thought always gets me emotional and near tears almost every time.  Am I just being used?

I have one friend who has been hurt, thrown down, picked back up, been put back down, and has been through a ton in her life.  She's made her mistakes like the most of us and will openly admit that.  She confided to me at a dinner we had that she was going to make  certain decisions in order to keep herself happy and regret free.  She was sure of it and told me she was done with that part of her life for a long time.  Needless to say, she lied.  For 2 weekends and days she's been back at her ways.  Has made mistakes, and claims she regrets them.  Personally I don't know if I believe her anymore.  If you are dead set on something, you cannot go back on your word less than a month later.  It is bull shit to me.  I lose a lot of sympathy when I am cried to about the decisions she has made as they seem to be on repeat over and over again.  The only time I can feel bad are when bad things happen to her that are uncontrollable for her.  That is when I can feel for her and help her through the process of recovery to happiness.  It's difficult when she makes the decisions over and over again that cause her regrets and sorrow.  It is starting to become self destructive and I hope that over time she finds herself and is truly happy.  But I'm not sure she is on the right path at the moment.

This is where I start to think, who is my friend?  Who just uses me?  Who is there for me?  Who loves me?  I know there are people out there that use me.  I know there are people that love me.  I know that I have friends.  I know this because they are there for me as much as I am for them.  When they feel I am upset, they take the time out of there day to shoot me a text and check up on me.  They're willing to talk me through my problems.  I am forever grateful for those people in my life.  I love them endlessly.

The people that act to be my friend are the most frustrating.  I feel like I'm never thought of my them although I do everything in my power to be their friend.  I feel like I'm just used to be heard out, or as a place to have a large group over to chill and party.  I can never pinpoint who these people are because I am not a mind reader, but I'm starting to develop opinions on those who I feel do.  I do not hate them.  It is wrong to hate.  But I feel like the ties of our friendship are becoming looser day by day.  They don't exactly care how I feel.  I don't think they care enough that I am upset or angry.  These people might need out of my life to keep sanity but on the same note, I need them too.  They are fun people and a good group of kids.  There is nothing wrong with any of them.  I just don't know where I stand with them anymore.

I'm sorry for a depressing kind of blog.  Hopefully the one tonight after my day is over is a lot more uplifting.  I'm going to try to have a good day and be able to talk about it later.  I'm going to try to be with my good friends who I know like me for who I am.  You readers are people I consider good friends.  You might not check up on me every day, but this is kind of a form of hearing me out and hearing my opinions.  I am grateful for you guys.  Having a blog is a great way to express and let out your thoughts.  Having readers is a reassurance that people care about what you have to say.  It is a day maker when I get a text saying my blog is good or that they like it.  They can turn my whole mood around.  I love you guys.  I may not know everyone who reads this, but you guys are some of my best friends.  You read daily and pretty much listen to my problems.  You're happy when my day is good and worried when it is bad.  You guys help me get through the day.  I love you all.

Coming to an End

This is the second blog from my iPhone since getting this app so I apologize for potential typos.

I am currently on the bus home from the section tournament and I really started to think. I am really going to miss wrestling. Not the weight loss and suffering but every other aspects. The coaches the team the bonding and the laughs.

These guys have been with me forever and I love each and every one of them. We are a different team definitely but these qualities define who we are. The thing I'm going to miss is the coaches. I've gone through a lot of coaches in my career but they've all taught me a different thing in life and wrestling. They are father figures to me and I know I'll be keeping in contact with them after the season and my career.

It's weird to think it is all coming to an end. I'll never step on the mat and wrestle a real match. I'll never go online and see my name in the regional and section rankings. I'll never sit at a tournament and talk about life with all my friends like I do now. It's actually heartbreaking to me. There is one tournament left until wrestling is no longer routine for me. I honestly don't think I'll accept it until the next season starts and I won't be there.

Iny 4 years of wrestling only 3 of us have stuck it out the whole way. Tanner Cogar, Jordan Douglass, and myself. These kids are my brothers. As different as we are I'll love them until the end of time and have their back always. They understand what we go through on a daily basis and for that we have a mutual respect for everything we do.

Jordan is joining the marines. This is something he has wanted for a long time and I'm incredibly proud. It honestly scares me knowing his life will be on the line everyday. I'll think abou him a ton and write to him as much as possible. My dad said the best thing someone in the military can receive is mail. I want to keep him sane and know he is safe always. I know he will pull through though. He is strong and determined and will never say die I love him.

For Tanner I do not know where to begin. Ive known this kids since birth. We've been best friends since our frst play date. He is going to college closer to home than me and i know he is going to do great. Hell have a sold group of kids around him and know hell succeed in any of his endeavors. When i come home he will be one of the first people i call. I want to stay updated on his life and know E he is doing. He is a really good friend and without him I wouldnt be me. He is one of my oldest friends and I know we'll stay close forever. I love him like my brother. He is family to me and always wil be.

Tanner and Jordan, I wish you two the bed of luck in the future. We still have a whole senior year to fulfill and I know it will be lived to the fullest. We still have our wrestling party at the end of the season. I cannot wait.

That's all I got today everyone. Thank you much for reading. You guys are all great. Have am amazing night and I hope you are all smart and safe. Goodnight I love you all.

A Little Love Story

Well readers, I know my usual blog consists of a review of my day, and is a strong talk about friendship but a blog dedicated to this person is well overdue.  This one is just going to tell you the main background story of my relationship with Eryne, as you should know by either knowing me or reading, who is my girlfriend.  Well... here we go.

I can remember quite vividly the first time she caught my eye.  It was in the Summer (I couldn't exactly tell you which Summer but I know it was Summer time).  I was forced to go to my little brother's baseball game and as compensation, I was allowed to go to the wave pool after.  To the game I wore some stupid t shirt and my favorite pair of lime green argyle swim trunks.  I went to the game looking like a complete idiot and acted like an even larger one throughout the time.  To parents, they all knew me.  I was entertainment and always made them laugh and such.  It wasn't until halfway through my loud attention grabbing complaining and cheering against my own brother for their season and game to end before I noticed her.  The words that entered my head were simply "Oh shit."  I figured at this point I blew any chance of being acquainted with her that day so I was just hoping she never caught my name.  I was quite embarrassed, but I just carried on as I figured everything was already blown.  That was the first time I noticed her and the last time I saw her until school sophomore year.

During the beginning of sophomore year there were no kids in my lunch in my grade.  I only knew a few freshman so I chose to sit with them.  Kendall Lang and Anthony Hartzog were the two main people I knew that year.  I knew nothing about Eryne but I knew the table she sat at.  It was a circle table.  She sat with some girls I did not know, but she sat with my neighbor Kristi and my sister's friend's sister Maddie.  I always glanced at the table, attempting to see her for a little.  I was always quite attracted to her.  The first thing I learned about her was that she played volleyball.  I always attended the JV games as that is where my grade mainly played aside from a few girls.  That is where I learned her name and a few things about her from Anthony.  He attended every game with me because he was talking to Eryne's friend Allie.  They were on the verge of dating so I always accompanied him.  Fortunately for me, Allie and he started dating and he asked me to move lunch tables with him.  Trust me, I was quite nervous and if you know me, I do not get nervous.  I sat down, introduced myself to the people sitting there and became probably better friends to Katy Scruppi.  Little did I know was she was one of Eryne's best friends.  I never really talked to Eryne though.  I was always nervous and tongue tied.  This is why I knew she was special and different to me.  I never ever ever get nervous.  Over time and multiple group hangouts we eventually became friends.  I was able to construct sentences and actually speak to her, from there it was my goal to get her to like me.  Sadly enough I wasn't close enough to reach that goal at the time.

Allie and Anthony dated for a few months which was long enough for me to develop a strong enough friendship with everyone there to stay at the lunch table after their break up.  Really I couldn't allow myself to leave.  I had a nice little elementary school crush that I wanted to develop into more.  I kept trying but failed over and over again.  I was getting discouraged but couldn't give up.  Our friendship grew, and over time we actually got close.  We started to consider each other best friends which I wasn't too fond of actually.  The friend zone was something I kind of feared and wanted to stay out of.  I was happy where I was though, I figured at the minimum I wanted her to be a really important person and good friend in my life.  Obviously I wanted more than that though.

My favorite memory during our friendship and not our relationship was a game of truth or dare.  Eryne refused to deny a dare and someone (for the life of me I cannot remember who) dared her to kiss me.  I know it was very cheesy and lame, but I liked it, and it made me very happy.  It made me want her more than I already did.  After that moment, I was a man on a mission.

Throughout the course of my sophomore year we stayed close but during the Summer we grew a bit more distant due to different interests.  I was a partier and she is a good girl that didn't exactly condone my actions. We hung out a few times though which was nice, but it wasn't the same as it was during school.  A huge road block hit my mission.  She started to fall for another boy.

My good friend Simon started to take an interest to Ernye.  I really couldn't say anything because I kept my emotions to myself, but I myself set them up and pushed Simon to go for her.  She confided to me on a walk to her house that she liked him quite a bit.  Simon was the first person I told I liked and cared about her, but I encouraged him to chase her.  As a friend I wanted her to be happy more than anything, but deep down I hoped their relationship would fail.  Luckily for me, it did.  After that moment I asked to talk to her about it in attempt to get back to where we were before.  She told me the story of how it was hard because they never saw each other and it was an inevitable end.  That night I was back on my goal.

School started for my junior year and I lucked out with the same lunch as her, Katy, and a few other friends.  I didn't sit next to her in the beginning of the year because I still had no clue of her feelings for me.  We talked a lot and were still close but I was still good friends with others to sit next to them.  Eventually others noticed my interest in her and called me out.  I admitted my liking to her and they backed me up and helped talk her into liking me back.  I am definitely still in debt to those few.  Towards the end of 2010, with the help of liquid courage, I was told her that I loved her.  The conversation was brief but I told her how I felt the next day and wasn't just saying it with my impaired state of mind.  She told me that she liked me as well and that was my opening.  It was time to take her for myself.  We talked for about a month until we finally hit a small roadblock.  Another close friend of mine, Clifford liked her and took her to prom.  She told me that and I slightly went berserk.  Things were broken and I was crushed.  She had no clue how hard this would hit me as she didn't know I already backed down once to a good friend of mine.  Fortunately enough, she said no in hopes I would ask her.  I eventually calmed down and realized she had no clue what I had already gone through.  My mind was back on track.

On February 5, 2011 she asked me to come to her house and just hang out.  Me and her.  This was my opening.  The activities were nothing special. We played ping pong and ended the night watching Grease. Her's and my favorite musical.  I kissed her once before the movie and she kissed back.  That was the confidence boost I needed to get my two questions out.  While watching Grease, I asked her to prom, and to officially be my girlfriend.  Both answers were in my favor.  My happiness was through the roof.  It is still the best day of my life.

Since that glorious day we have been together for 1 year, and 19 days.  We have had an anniversary, 2 valentines days, and celebrated each other's birthdays once.  Mine is coming up soon for the second.  I have never been happier with her in my life.  She accepts me for who I am and loves me unconditionally.  And I feel the exact same way.  I care for her more than any other person in my life.  She is the perfect person for me and I make sure I tell her that daily.  She is someone I can never see out of my life.  I love her.  We have been through some rough times but have always came out on top.  We suffered some issues with her friends not liking me that much, but I have matured and am taking steps to fix the relationships I have had with them.  That is where this next paragraph will come into play.

This is to Katy.  I hope Eryne tells you to read this but this is my formal and public apology.  I know looking back on everything that I was completely wrong for things I have done and said to hurt you.  You have done nothing wrong to me and I was immature with all of my actions.  I regret them every day.  I know that we were actually closer friends then me and Eryne at the beginning.  I would love to be back into that tight friendship with you.  You are a great person and a great friend to the people you love.  I know we have a lot of differences, but so do a lot of people and myself.  I want to take the steps possible to build our friendship again.  You were an important person to me and I want to have you in my life as a friend again.  I know it may take time, but I am willing to take the necessary actions in order for things to be like they were before.  I just want to say I am truly and dearly sorry for everything and I hope you can forgive me after all of this time.

This is all I have for you guys today.  I know it isnt usual for me but I felt the need to write it.  There were things that were bugging me and Eryne deserves her own blog post.  Thank you all for reading.  Without your support I could never do this.  I love you all and goodnight:)

Back in Action

Today I finally went back to high school.  Took me long enough eh? Only 6 days off, not too bad.  But in all seriousness I had a great day.  School went pretty quick and it was really nice to see a bunch of people I didnt see over the long weekend.  I also had something to look forward to after school and track.  West Allegheny Hockey Senior Night.  I was really excited because I finally gained the opportunity to go back to my old ways as a member of the student section. Covered in paint.  But I'll get back to that later.  I'll just review my day.

Well I got to school and was greeted by quite a few people wondering where I have been.  That alone just put my day in the perfect mood because I mean hey, it was noticed I was missing.  That at least means I'm thought of every once in a while right?  Well along with that school went pretty quick.  I didn't have much to do and didn't miss too much so it breezed on by.  The highlight of the school day was definitely seeing Frau Zanella after all this time.  That woman is my 2nd mom.  She has been there for me through everything since the day I met her and am grateful for the rest of my life.  She is a woman that I truly love as a person.  I had my 2 classes with her, ate lunch (outside which was really nice), went to stats, sat in study hall, and went to track.

Track was a pleasant surprise.  There were a ton of kids that showed up unlike the past 3 day of a maximum of 3 people.  A lot of people came which made me really proud.  Kids are dedicated this year and that is what is going to make a great team.  I swear I say it every day all the time but I am so excited for track.  It's the season I favor the most and just love every bit about it.  I have very high expectations for it this year and I'll be working myself to the max in attempt to accomplish them.

After track I showered up, ate and got ready to go out for a pregame shopping spree with Dylan Bongiorni for the hockey game.  He picked me up, we went and got our paint, got me some nice tight yoga shorts and just drove around.  I love hanging out with him. Dylan that is.  He is a true friend and the kind of person I can relate to.  We have a lot of the same interests and can bull shit about anything really.  We drove around listened to our country and just talked and talked about our lives.  We ended up at our friend Garretts house and shot basketball for a while.  Garrett is also someone I've known since like forever.  We grew apart through the middle school and early high school stages but as we entered our senior year, we got a lot closer. I like that because he is the kind of friend you want to have.  He will always have your back, will sit and talk about life with you and is just overall a good person.  He is one of the kids I am most sure is going to go far in life.  He has his priorities in life straight, is a hard worker, and will do whatever it takes to accomplish his goals (hence 2 GOLD state medals).  He is someone I'll miss in college, along with Dylan, and will try to catch up with him anytime I get.

Finally Dylan and I headed to the game and got a nice parking spot.  We took off our shirts, got the paint and hooked each other up.  Since there were only 2 of us, we had one name as an option.  One of our stars.  Mo Coburn.  On our backs I represented the numbers 9, 51, and 16.  3 of my good friends and 3 people I madly respect.  Dylan wore the number 93 for our star goalie Jason Kumpfmiller. I'm going to get a little side tracked here but Jason is a person I want to talk about.

Jason, or Kumpf as he is known in West A and most of the world, is a kid that I was really good friends with early in high school.  We hung out a good bit, partied together, and just always had a good time.  Through sophomore and junior year we grew apart a lot.  We could actually say that we had some bad blood between us for reasons I cannot even remember.  This senior year during the football season we put our differences aside for the sake of the student section.  Since then I guess we can label our friendship as cool.  Not best friends but we respect each other.  This kid has been through a lot.  He is one of the strongest kids I know and just keeps grinding through the struggles.  He has some strength I don't know if I will ever have.  Through the rest of this senior year, I hope that we can become better friends.  I know he, like Garrett, will always have one of his boys' backs.  That is the kind of kid you can never hate.  I know that we're going to wind up in the same house as each other but hopefully some day I'll maybe get a call inviting me to play some poker at his house and just chill.  I'm fairly certain over time we could become tight.

Back to the hockey game, though.  It was an easy win.  Our paint and enthusiasm got his a 6-0 win with Mo having 4 points.  He played outrageously.  It was a great game to watch and showed us why this team is the best in the section.  I have high hopes for the team as they are the face of West Allegheny Sports.  After the game is where I'm at now.  Home, cleaned up, and just excited to blog.  Today was a great day and tomorrow is going to be great as well.  I'm hanging out with Eryne for the first time in forever.  We're probably going to watch the most recent Twilight movie.  I'm not too thrilled about the series but she likes them and when she is happy, so am I.

Well blogger I must say goodnight to you.  I'm posting my first photo ever as it is a great memory of tonight.  My quote I made up is one that I truly enjoy.  "Although the paint runs off, the memories last forever."  Thank you all for reading, I know it was long and I apologize.  You are all truly great.  I love you all. See you all tomorrow.

Uneventful

I guess I really don't have much to say today. I stayed home sick because I woke up with a serious stomach ache and laid in bed all day. Around noon I threw up and everything felt better. I could eat and drink without fearing it would come up.

I still kept my goal and went to track today. We added a new member to our running group. Little Lauren Costa can in with fresh legs and gave it her all too. She is going to be a force to. E reckoned with these next 4 years. After track I watched wrestling, went home, and sat here for the rest of the day. It felt good to run again although I was sick. Ill be back at school tomorrow where I can finally see everybody again. Goodnight my friends. I love you all.

Sorry Blogger it's Been a While

To the few readers I may have left, I am truly sorry for this long long long break from blogging.  I guess I've been keeping to myself lately.  But I guess I'll just go over some highlights and then just get into these past few days.

For one, I no longer have a criminal record.  I blogged about my incident before so you can read up on that if you're interested, but needless to say It feels like the biggest weight is lifted off my shoulders.

The next big thing that happened was the West Allegheny vs Bishop Canevin hockey game.  We won in an epic game with my good friend having one of his best performances of the year.  I was truly proud of him.  After the game we had no school, the start of the senior 5 day weekend.  We went to Mo's house and just hung out.  Me and a bunch of good people.  We ate pizza, played cards, and reminisced about our pasts.  Good and bad.  Needless to say it was a good time.

Friday we had a wrestling match.  This match was big because it was to help my best friend Tanner work his way to 100 wins.  He received the victory and got one step closer.  Our team also won to our surprise and it was just a happy ending to a good day.  I stayed over my friend Beans' house after the match and hungout with him, played some pool, and watched Lord of the Rings.  Another fantastic night.

Saturday was one of the best days of the weekend.  I went home from Beans' house in the morning and got ready for my day with my wonderful girlfriend Eryne.  We hung out for a good while until I had to go home and get ready for a bon fire I was having at my house later that night.  I had a bunch of my good buddies over and we just hung out with my dad, told stories, listened to music and had an overall great time.  The morning got me thinking though.  I started to think who my friends were.  In the morning I saw that some were and some weren't.  It got to me.  But my true friends again showed who they are by being by my side and helping me.  I truly love all of them.  The rest of the Sunday morning was relaxing until I went out with Beans again.  We drove around and ended up playing pool in Bridgeville.  Something that was more enjoyable than I thought it was going to be.  I stayed over again and we went to wrestling in the morning.

Monday was a rougher day.  We went to wrestling which was a strictly running practice.  Being out all this time with my concussion got me in terrible shape and had to sit out for one of our relays.  It felt good to run.  Really good actually and got me craving track season to start soon.  2 weeks I'll be back on the track running my heart out.  I cannot wait.  After practice I ended up on facebook and saw a status from my track coach.  There was actually voluntary workout starting that day at 3 for all the sprinters.  I was really excited.  I called up all the runners and informed them.  It was obvious they were not as excited as I was.  I first went to lunch with Eryne and her brother Nick.  We went to Saga and fulfilled my sushi addiction and hung out with her for a little while.  After that I went to track.  There were only 3 of us.  Jenny Forse, Coach Mills, and myself.  We ran 24 55 meter sprints as our first workout.  It was rough and I felt it all day, but it was refreshing to talk about this upcoming season and how we thought it was going to go.  I was excited already.  After practice I fell asleep for two hours and stayed up for a little.  I just listened to music and eventually fell asleep.

I woke up today on Monday and really just hung out by myself until I saw a tweet from my good friend Mike.  He was just about to leave for Quaker Steak and Lube to say goodbye to our really good friend Zpon who left for bootcamp today.  We hungout there, shared memories with all of my older friends, and said our goodbyes.  It was a happy and sad moment at the same time.  I am really proud of him.  He is doing this for his education to better himself.  I have the fullest respect for that.  Good luck Zpon.  I love you buddy.  After that, Mike took me to my second day of track.  Today we did 15 80 meter sprints.  It was a lot harder but I know this is only going to benefit me in the end.  I'm not missing a single practice this season.  After that I went to wrestling practice and just watched.  I'm still not allowed to wrestle and will be out for the season, but I feel the need to show up.  I'm still a member of this team and need to show my support and dedication.  After the game I went to the playoff basketball game with Dylan Bongiorni.  The game was insane and I am so happy that I went.  It was a great game and a great time.  That concludes my weekend.

Along with all this happening.  I made a major goal for myself.  I want to be there for anyone in need.  A good friend or not.  The minute after I posted this I received a text from my friend Samara.  She is having a tough time making decisions about someone trying to win her back who wronged her so many times.  I listened and gave the best advice I could give.  I really hoped it helped her out and in the end I want her to be happy.  She is the kind of person that went through a lot of undeserving pain and deserves to be happy after all that she had suffered.  This wasn't the first time I've talked to her about this situation.  It is one that I don't know a ton about, but enough for me to voice an opinion.  Samara is someone I can never say that I have been close with, but we have always been friends.  She is someone I can say hi to in the hallways and always get a nice hello back.  She is a real nice girl.  She is definitely someone that I would like becoming a better friend with.  Someone who has been through a lot and can relate to me on a lot of subjects.  Through all of this I do feel closer to her.  Not like a relationship close but a solid friendship close.  Hopefully by the end of the year I can call her one of my best friends.  She knows that I'm always there for her, and I hope that when I'm in need she'll be there for me to turn too and vent.  I have faith in this girl.  She has a lot going for her and is going to accomplish great things.  I know it.

Well I hope I didn't bore you all but I had a lot to reminisce about.  This was my 5 day weekend.  I hope all of you had a great one as well.  Keep reading, be safe, and tell someone you love them.  It'll make their day.  Goodnight.