Today was a prime example as to why Frau Zanella is the biggest inspiration in my life and my favorite teacher in the building. This woman loves every student like her own child and will do anything in order to help them. I personally know this as she was the only person in the building there for me during my incident with the police. She is a straight shooter and will tell you like it is. She knows everything and can give a piece of advice for every scenario given. She is always right and knows what is best. I'll never question her advice or decisions. It seems to me like she is a flawless individual. I first want to talk about what she has done for me in life before I go on about what she did today though.
I first met Frau on my way to Germany after my sophomore year. I had yet to be acquainted with her but I was going to be one of her students the following school year. From the get go I already loved her. She was funny, easy to get along with, and already cared for us (kids she had yet to even meet) like her own. She wanted us to have a fantastic time in this foreign country. This is where our relationship started. Frau appreciated my love for Germany. I will say this with full confidence I got the absolute most out of my trip more than anyone else there. I tried restaurants, different foods, spoke to natives, and made new friends from other schools within our group. Frau and I had conversations every day about various topics. In Germany she didn't seem like a teacher to me. She seemed like one of my friends I have known for years. She is just that kind of person you can hit it off with that easily. After the end of the trip, she told me I was different from most kids in the world and I was going to be president. I just kind of laughed at it, but it warmed me up inside.
Junior year was my first full year with Frau. It was a difficult year, but it was the year I learned more about life than any other year. This was all due to Frau. This woman wants the best out of everyone and knows their true potential. She gave us the most inspirational speeches that have given me tremendous help throughout my decisions in high school. Junior year was also the year I decided to pursue German in college. I owed this woman so much during my junior year just for her speaking. It wasn't until senior year I can officially call her one of my best friends.
For my senior year I decided to take the 4th level of German. I knew this class would be rigorous, and I also knew that it was the only way to get another year with Frau. I knew I would need her for senior year. I even was able to sign up for a study hall in her classroom when she has a German 3 class where I help her grade papers and do various work for her. It is the least I can do for her. She has saved my tail more than once. There is one main moment that completely changed the way the I looked at Frau. This is not negative if that is what you're thinking. It is the transition of her becoming a great teacher to my biggest inspiration.
When I was caught drinking on school property, I was not afraid of my dad, my mom, Eryne, or the administration. I was terrified of what Frau would think of me. It brought me to tears thinking of what she was thinking. I felt like the ultimate failure and didn't deserve to be loved like the rest of her students. The next morning, I was advised to email my teachers to make them aware of my absence. She was the first to reply and her letter back brought tears to me. She informed me that she knew I was still a terrific young man and that she has faith I will get through everything. While reading this I absolutely broke down. It felt like the heavies weight was taken off my shoulders and everything was going to be okay. I was no longer afraid of anything. I returned to school for a 3 day in school suspension and Frau visited me on her free period. She talked to me and I just listened. And cried. She told me I was special and different from everyone else. She said in all her years of teaching she never met a person like me. Someone so spirited, able to rally the whole student body, and always optimistic. She ended our long conversation with a hug where I was still bawling my eyes out. That was exactly what I needed. I made a goal to never disappoint her again. I do not believe I have yet, and I refuse to ever again. I could never hurt her like I feel like I did before. She is too important of a person in my life.
Today, I sat through a speech Frau gave to German 3. It was about how serious dating violence is and told us about her personal life. She told us not to put up with anything. Never put up with swearing. Never stay with someone when you are mistreated once because it will only get worse. She believes that your significant other should feel lucky to have you and you should feel lucky to have them. Fortunately enough for me, I have that. Frau talked a lot more about how serious it was but I started to think in the middle. I can think of a scenario for one of my friends in each topic she made. It made me realize how unhealthy a lot of relationships are. I felt bad for all my friends who suffered for a long time where they should have escaped the pain a long time ago. Frau has that power. She can make you think a ton. A good kind of thinking that will better yourself when you figure everything else. She is a woman I am going to think about in college, and cry because I won't be seeing her every single day. After everything we have been through, I can say she is one of my best friends.
Although I will not be running for president, I will do whatever it takes to make Frau proud. Her opinions means more to me than that of my own family. I don't know why, but every time I make a decision I think what Frau would have to say about it. As much as she has done for me I feel the need to make her proud to say she taught me. I received one strike and I'm not allowing myself to get to two. Everyone deserves to have a Frau in their life. A lot of us are just lucky that we have THE REAL FRAU.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
A Close Call
Wow. I almost didn't get a blog in tonight! After track today I ate and passed out until now. I'm still pretty tired to I want to bust this out before I'm back asleep.
Today was a weird day I guess. I did. not want to go to school today by any means but I made it. I kinda coasted by until German. Today we started watching a movie about the Holocaust. I really don't like the Holocaust strictly for how much I think when the subject is brought up. So many unanswered questions that I can only draw am opinion for my answer and never know what's right. How could a man even think of this? What was done to him? How was it kept a secret so well? How did this actually get pulled off? I could literally ask questions for three hours and never get a real answer. Most of the people involved are gone so
my mind will always wonder and I'll never get an answer.
Another reason I despise the Holocaust is how emotional I get. Frau said this is the happiest part in the movie and I already cried. I feel bad for both parties. The Jews suffered for years and it is so depressing yet inspiring how they were able to move on and live a lIfe after this. I never could. There are certain daily life things that I can hardly get by like questioning friendship. I could never move on questioning humanity every single minute of every single day year after year of torture. I also feel bad and slightly embarrassed for the German in me. I'm a mixed breed, but when anyone asks me i say I am German. Germans are great people. I was fortunate enough to become good friends with an exchange student last year and he didn't enjoy Holocaust talk. He wasn't even alive or thought of but he was embarrassed. You should never be embarrassed of who you are. I will say I am German with pride, e
embrace my heritage the best I can, accept the mistakes my family overseas made and always stay proud to my roots. I would not want to born any other way.
The rest of my day was coasted through, track was hell and knocked me out until now. I actually had a conversation with a friend waiting for a ride home today. That person is Jenna Reilly and she is getting the shout out tonight.
J Rei is one of my track sisters. I cannot say she is one of my best friends but we have that special track bond like I do with all my other track siblings. We talked about college Andy future. She asked a ton of questions and was really interested in my life. As simple as that was, it made my whole day. It is a great feeling knowing someone is interested in your life. Someone is there willing to listen to you and wants to know about you. Jenna, you made my day today. Thank you. You are the best.
Well readers thats it for tonight. Thanks for taking you time. I love you all. Sweet dreams
Today was a weird day I guess. I did. not want to go to school today by any means but I made it. I kinda coasted by until German. Today we started watching a movie about the Holocaust. I really don't like the Holocaust strictly for how much I think when the subject is brought up. So many unanswered questions that I can only draw am opinion for my answer and never know what's right. How could a man even think of this? What was done to him? How was it kept a secret so well? How did this actually get pulled off? I could literally ask questions for three hours and never get a real answer. Most of the people involved are gone so
my mind will always wonder and I'll never get an answer.
Another reason I despise the Holocaust is how emotional I get. Frau said this is the happiest part in the movie and I already cried. I feel bad for both parties. The Jews suffered for years and it is so depressing yet inspiring how they were able to move on and live a lIfe after this. I never could. There are certain daily life things that I can hardly get by like questioning friendship. I could never move on questioning humanity every single minute of every single day year after year of torture. I also feel bad and slightly embarrassed for the German in me. I'm a mixed breed, but when anyone asks me i say I am German. Germans are great people. I was fortunate enough to become good friends with an exchange student last year and he didn't enjoy Holocaust talk. He wasn't even alive or thought of but he was embarrassed. You should never be embarrassed of who you are. I will say I am German with pride, e
embrace my heritage the best I can, accept the mistakes my family overseas made and always stay proud to my roots. I would not want to born any other way.
The rest of my day was coasted through, track was hell and knocked me out until now. I actually had a conversation with a friend waiting for a ride home today. That person is Jenna Reilly and she is getting the shout out tonight.
J Rei is one of my track sisters. I cannot say she is one of my best friends but we have that special track bond like I do with all my other track siblings. We talked about college Andy future. She asked a ton of questions and was really interested in my life. As simple as that was, it made my whole day. It is a great feeling knowing someone is interested in your life. Someone is there willing to listen to you and wants to know about you. Jenna, you made my day today. Thank you. You are the best.
Well readers thats it for tonight. Thanks for taking you time. I love you all. Sweet dreams
Monday, February 27, 2012
A Runner's Lovers
Alright people. Im just going to jump right into it for this one. Here we go.
Well my day started off on the shit side. I woke up on time, showered, got ready, and when I was all ready to get going, I realized my mom and siblings were still asleep. Boy was I pissed. I hate coming late for stupid reasons I cannot control. I'm definitely on the verge of a Saturday soon. It sucks big time especially because this time it is not my fault at all.
School actually made my day a lot better. It kinda flies by now that I care less and less so I really can't complain. What really got me in the best mood was when my friend Jake texted me and said he was coming home Friday to pick me up so we can go to Akron. I know it's going to be a fun time and seeing all my friends will be a nice change. It'll be good for me I think. I had a period of joy until stats. I finally had to take my midterm I've been putting off for a while. I don't think I did too well but lll accept that as my fault. I never prepared myself for that. The next thing that happened was track.
Today at track I was nervous. The workout was hard but by the time we it to running I didnt even care. I had already seen my good friend B Krszz (the runner, not the rapper) who is home from college. I also got to have a good time being an engineer with Will Page setting up the high jump mats. Boy did we feel stupid doing that.
Eventually we started running and I felt alright. My speed is still a little low but in working on it. I really need to start hurdling though. I feel like I need to practice my skill at least twice this week. I want to be a step ahead of the competition. After our workout ended I met up with Brandon and Rj and just sat around and talked. We ended up going to Subway with the Costa family and Will. We sat at a table, told stories, and just talked. As you can maybe guess I'll be dedicating a paragraph to B and one to Rj. I'll get to that in a sec.
After practice I went home and cleaned my room so I could go out with Eryne for a little. That is where I just came from actually. We hung around until my how started and she massaged my legs. I am so in debt to her for how she takes care of me. I'll make it up somehow. We watched the voice on tv for the next 2 hours until I had to leave. I never have a bad day when I spend t with her. I can guarantee that I'll be happy anytime I get to spen with her. She is the best.
Now it's time for the two dedications tonight. I'll start with Brandon. I've known this kid since seventh grade. We ran together pretty much our whole lives. We only had one year apart unto this year and that's just because he's older than me. Brandon and I grew really close over the years. I guess you kinda have to when you spend over 2/3 a school year with a kid at meets, practices, and bus rides. We became really good friends when I started to get better I think. It's hard to be a ba runner and hangout with the elite kids. They're a main reason why I worked my way up to the number one hurdle spot. I wanted to be part of the elite group. After that we got even closer. We went to more meets and I was lucky enough to watch him at states his senior year. This kid really makes me proud to go to West A and be a member of track. He is one of the hardest workers out there and is incredibly determined. I know he'll accomplish great things just with his attitude on everything. I love this kid.
Rj is one of the youngins Brandon and I took under our wings. I was trying to sway him to the fun goon squad. Brandon wanted him trying. Brandon won so I took Rj under a wing for something else. A much more fun wing. He is my favorite underclassmen. He is mature enough to hang out with and fun enough to never get boring. I'll feel bad leaving him at West A. I wish he was older and I would have gotten to know him sooner. He's a good for d except he never answers his phone. He has a great shot at accomplishing things while running. I can't wait to hear about him wearing gold around his neck for various championships these next few years. I'll be keeping in touch with him and making sure he going down the right path. I love this kid like a little brother I actually want.
Well that's all I got folks. You're all still amazing and thanks for reading. Love you all. Goodnight
Well my day started off on the shit side. I woke up on time, showered, got ready, and when I was all ready to get going, I realized my mom and siblings were still asleep. Boy was I pissed. I hate coming late for stupid reasons I cannot control. I'm definitely on the verge of a Saturday soon. It sucks big time especially because this time it is not my fault at all.
School actually made my day a lot better. It kinda flies by now that I care less and less so I really can't complain. What really got me in the best mood was when my friend Jake texted me and said he was coming home Friday to pick me up so we can go to Akron. I know it's going to be a fun time and seeing all my friends will be a nice change. It'll be good for me I think. I had a period of joy until stats. I finally had to take my midterm I've been putting off for a while. I don't think I did too well but lll accept that as my fault. I never prepared myself for that. The next thing that happened was track.
Today at track I was nervous. The workout was hard but by the time we it to running I didnt even care. I had already seen my good friend B Krszz (the runner, not the rapper) who is home from college. I also got to have a good time being an engineer with Will Page setting up the high jump mats. Boy did we feel stupid doing that.
Eventually we started running and I felt alright. My speed is still a little low but in working on it. I really need to start hurdling though. I feel like I need to practice my skill at least twice this week. I want to be a step ahead of the competition. After our workout ended I met up with Brandon and Rj and just sat around and talked. We ended up going to Subway with the Costa family and Will. We sat at a table, told stories, and just talked. As you can maybe guess I'll be dedicating a paragraph to B and one to Rj. I'll get to that in a sec.
After practice I went home and cleaned my room so I could go out with Eryne for a little. That is where I just came from actually. We hung around until my how started and she massaged my legs. I am so in debt to her for how she takes care of me. I'll make it up somehow. We watched the voice on tv for the next 2 hours until I had to leave. I never have a bad day when I spend t with her. I can guarantee that I'll be happy anytime I get to spen with her. She is the best.
Now it's time for the two dedications tonight. I'll start with Brandon. I've known this kid since seventh grade. We ran together pretty much our whole lives. We only had one year apart unto this year and that's just because he's older than me. Brandon and I grew really close over the years. I guess you kinda have to when you spend over 2/3 a school year with a kid at meets, practices, and bus rides. We became really good friends when I started to get better I think. It's hard to be a ba runner and hangout with the elite kids. They're a main reason why I worked my way up to the number one hurdle spot. I wanted to be part of the elite group. After that we got even closer. We went to more meets and I was lucky enough to watch him at states his senior year. This kid really makes me proud to go to West A and be a member of track. He is one of the hardest workers out there and is incredibly determined. I know he'll accomplish great things just with his attitude on everything. I love this kid.
Rj is one of the youngins Brandon and I took under our wings. I was trying to sway him to the fun goon squad. Brandon wanted him trying. Brandon won so I took Rj under a wing for something else. A much more fun wing. He is my favorite underclassmen. He is mature enough to hang out with and fun enough to never get boring. I'll feel bad leaving him at West A. I wish he was older and I would have gotten to know him sooner. He's a good for d except he never answers his phone. He has a great shot at accomplishing things while running. I can't wait to hear about him wearing gold around his neck for various championships these next few years. I'll be keeping in touch with him and making sure he going down the right path. I love this kid like a little brother I actually want.
Well that's all I got folks. You're all still amazing and thanks for reading. Love you all. Goodnight
A Runner's Lovers
Alright people. Im just going to jump right into it for this one. Here we go.
Well my day started off on the shit side. I woke up on time, showered, got ready, and when I was all ready to get going, I realized my mom and siblings were still asleep. Boy was I pissed. I hate coming late for stupid reasons I cannot control. I'm definitely on the verge of a Saturday soon. It sucks big time especially because this time it is not my fault at all.
School actually made my day a lot better. It kinda flies by now that I care less and less so I really can't complain. What really got me in the best mood was when my friend Jake texted me and said he was coming home Friday to pick me up so we can go to Akron. I know it's going to be a fun time and seeing all my friends will be a nice change. It'll be good for me I think. I had a period of joy until stats. I finally had to take my midterm I've been putting off for a while. I don't think I did too well but lll accept that as my fault. I never prepared myself for that. The next thing that happened was track.
Today at track I was nervous. The workout was hard but by the time we it to running I didnt even care. I had already seen my good friend B Krszz (the runner, not the rapper) who is home from college. I also got to have a good time being an engineer with Will Page setting up the high jump mats. Boy did we feel stupid doing that.
Eventually we started running and I felt alright. My speed is still a little low but in working on it. I really need to start hurdling though. I feel like I need to practice my skill at least twice this week. I want to be a step ahead of the competition. After our workout ended I met up with Brandon and Rj and just sat around and talked. We ended up going to Subway with the Costa family and Will. We sat at a table, told stories, and just talked. As you can maybe guess I'll be dedicating a paragraph to B and one to Rj. I'll get to that in a sec.
After practice I went home and cleaned my room so I could go out with Eryne for a little. That is where I just came from actually. We hung around until my how started and she massaged my legs. I am so in debt to her for how she takes care of me. I'll make it up somehow. We watched the voice on tv for the next 2 hours until I had to leave. I never have a bad day when I spend t with her. I can guarantee that I'll be happy anytime I get to spen with her. She is the best.
Now it's time for the two dedications tonight. I'll start with Brandon. I've known this kid since seventh grade. We ran together pretty much our whole lives. We only had one year apart unto this year and that's just because he's older than me. Brandon and I grew really close over the years. I guess you kinda have to when you spend over 2/3 a school year with a kid at meets, practices, and bus rides. We became really good friends when I started to get better I think. It's hard to be a ba runner and hangout with the elite kids. They're a main reason why I worked my way up to the number one hurdle spot. I wanted to be part of the elite group. After that we got even closer. We went to more meets and I was lucky enough to watch him at states his senior year. This kid really makes me proud to go to West A and be a member of track. He is one of the hardest workers out there and is incredibly determined. I know he'll accomplish great things just with his attitude on everything. I love this kid.
Rj is one of the youngins Brandon and I took under our wings. I was trying to sway him to the fun goon squad. Brandon wanted him trying. Brandon won so I took Rj under a wing for something else. A much more fun wing. He is my favorite underclassmen. He is mature enough to hang out with and fun enough to never get boring. I'll feel bad leaving him at West A. I wish he was older and I would have gotten to know him sooner. He's a good for d except he never answers his phone. He has a great shot at accomplishing things while running. I can't wait to hear about him wearing gold around his neck for various championships these next few years. I'll be keeping in touch with him and making sure he going down the right path. I love this kid like a little brother I actually want.
Well that's all I got folks. You're all still amazing and thanks for reading. Love you all. Goodnight
Well my day started off on the shit side. I woke up on time, showered, got ready, and when I was all ready to get going, I realized my mom and siblings were still asleep. Boy was I pissed. I hate coming late for stupid reasons I cannot control. I'm definitely on the verge of a Saturday soon. It sucks big time especially because this time it is not my fault at all.
School actually made my day a lot better. It kinda flies by now that I care less and less so I really can't complain. What really got me in the best mood was when my friend Jake texted me and said he was coming home Friday to pick me up so we can go to Akron. I know it's going to be a fun time and seeing all my friends will be a nice change. It'll be good for me I think. I had a period of joy until stats. I finally had to take my midterm I've been putting off for a while. I don't think I did too well but lll accept that as my fault. I never prepared myself for that. The next thing that happened was track.
Today at track I was nervous. The workout was hard but by the time we it to running I didnt even care. I had already seen my good friend B Krszz (the runner, not the rapper) who is home from college. I also got to have a good time being an engineer with Will Page setting up the high jump mats. Boy did we feel stupid doing that.
Eventually we started running and I felt alright. My speed is still a little low but in working on it. I really need to start hurdling though. I feel like I need to practice my skill at least twice this week. I want to be a step ahead of the competition. After our workout ended I met up with Brandon and Rj and just sat around and talked. We ended up going to Subway with the Costa family and Will. We sat at a table, told stories, and just talked. As you can maybe guess I'll be dedicating a paragraph to B and one to Rj. I'll get to that in a sec.
After practice I went home and cleaned my room so I could go out with Eryne for a little. That is where I just came from actually. We hung around until my how started and she massaged my legs. I am so in debt to her for how she takes care of me. I'll make it up somehow. We watched the voice on tv for the next 2 hours until I had to leave. I never have a bad day when I spend t with her. I can guarantee that I'll be happy anytime I get to spen with her. She is the best.
Now it's time for the two dedications tonight. I'll start with Brandon. I've known this kid since seventh grade. We ran together pretty much our whole lives. We only had one year apart unto this year and that's just because he's older than me. Brandon and I grew really close over the years. I guess you kinda have to when you spend over 2/3 a school year with a kid at meets, practices, and bus rides. We became really good friends when I started to get better I think. It's hard to be a ba runner and hangout with the elite kids. They're a main reason why I worked my way up to the number one hurdle spot. I wanted to be part of the elite group. After that we got even closer. We went to more meets and I was lucky enough to watch him at states his senior year. This kid really makes me proud to go to West A and be a member of track. He is one of the hardest workers out there and is incredibly determined. I know he'll accomplish great things just with his attitude on everything. I love this kid.
Rj is one of the youngins Brandon and I took under our wings. I was trying to sway him to the fun goon squad. Brandon wanted him trying. Brandon won so I took Rj under a wing for something else. A much more fun wing. He is my favorite underclassmen. He is mature enough to hang out with and fun enough to never get boring. I'll feel bad leaving him at West A. I wish he was older and I would have gotten to know him sooner. He's a good for d except he never answers his phone. He has a great shot at accomplishing things while running. I can't wait to hear about him wearing gold around his neck for various championships these next few years. I'll be keeping in touch with him and making sure he going down the right path. I love this kid like a little brother I actually want.
Well that's all I got folks. You're all still amazing and thanks for reading. Love you all. Goodnight
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Number 2 Much Better
Ok everyone like I said I was making sure I was having a good day today. Although I didn't do much I can say today was a very good day. I was tired from a night at Beans' but everything was ok. I spent a majority of my day with Mike Frankowski we worked on German, ate, talked, and laughed at a hilarious black tv show. It was a good time. We shared stories had some laughs and shared our opinions on. a bunch of subjects going on in school. It was a well spent 4 hours.
Today I also learned there are people that are on my side with things and completely agree with me. Those main two people are Mara and Tommy. We talked about different subjects in my life but we could both relate and takes for a decent amount of time. Theyre special people and I know they're there for me. I like having conversations like that. They know a lot about what I'm going through and wish me the best. I am very thankful for them.
Today was a very good day. I was productive, got a lot off my mind, and learned that I have 2 really good friends by my side. I hope I can make it up to them for being there for me. I know I have their backs whenever they need an ear to listen or just a person to hang out with. Tom is getting his license soon so maybe he can just pick me up and we can hang a lot more. Being the only 2 seniors without the privilege to drive really is a hindrance on our friendship on the basis of hanging out. It'll be fixed soon. I'm excited hell be on the road finally. I guess I'm next haha.
Well it's almost time for bed. School tomorrow and such. I love you guys. Nighty night all
Today I also learned there are people that are on my side with things and completely agree with me. Those main two people are Mara and Tommy. We talked about different subjects in my life but we could both relate and takes for a decent amount of time. Theyre special people and I know they're there for me. I like having conversations like that. They know a lot about what I'm going through and wish me the best. I am very thankful for them.
Today was a very good day. I was productive, got a lot off my mind, and learned that I have 2 really good friends by my side. I hope I can make it up to them for being there for me. I know I have their backs whenever they need an ear to listen or just a person to hang out with. Tom is getting his license soon so maybe he can just pick me up and we can hang a lot more. Being the only 2 seniors without the privilege to drive really is a hindrance on our friendship on the basis of hanging out. It'll be fixed soon. I'm excited hell be on the road finally. I guess I'm next haha.
Well it's almost time for bed. School tomorrow and such. I love you guys. Nighty night all
Sunday Morning Rain is Falling (well not really)
Well today is a day I'll probably blog twice but I kinda need to vent and rant about things that have been going on my mind for a while now. This is one hundred percent on the subject of friendship.
As I was the only one awake at Beans' house last night I ended up reading Mara's blog she wrote late last night. It solely was about her 2 best friends and the things they do together and how happy each one of them makes each other. I started to think if I had that anymore. I know I have friends like that but they're away at college. In high school I'm a bit of an outcast I believe. I do not have a strong group of friends that I can call the BEST friends I have. Truthfully, I'm not sure if a majority of them even consider me a friend, but more of an outreach to help with problems. This thought always gets me emotional and near tears almost every time. Am I just being used?
I have one friend who has been hurt, thrown down, picked back up, been put back down, and has been through a ton in her life. She's made her mistakes like the most of us and will openly admit that. She confided to me at a dinner we had that she was going to make certain decisions in order to keep herself happy and regret free. She was sure of it and told me she was done with that part of her life for a long time. Needless to say, she lied. For 2 weekends and days she's been back at her ways. Has made mistakes, and claims she regrets them. Personally I don't know if I believe her anymore. If you are dead set on something, you cannot go back on your word less than a month later. It is bull shit to me. I lose a lot of sympathy when I am cried to about the decisions she has made as they seem to be on repeat over and over again. The only time I can feel bad are when bad things happen to her that are uncontrollable for her. That is when I can feel for her and help her through the process of recovery to happiness. It's difficult when she makes the decisions over and over again that cause her regrets and sorrow. It is starting to become self destructive and I hope that over time she finds herself and is truly happy. But I'm not sure she is on the right path at the moment.
This is where I start to think, who is my friend? Who just uses me? Who is there for me? Who loves me? I know there are people out there that use me. I know there are people that love me. I know that I have friends. I know this because they are there for me as much as I am for them. When they feel I am upset, they take the time out of there day to shoot me a text and check up on me. They're willing to talk me through my problems. I am forever grateful for those people in my life. I love them endlessly.
The people that act to be my friend are the most frustrating. I feel like I'm never thought of my them although I do everything in my power to be their friend. I feel like I'm just used to be heard out, or as a place to have a large group over to chill and party. I can never pinpoint who these people are because I am not a mind reader, but I'm starting to develop opinions on those who I feel do. I do not hate them. It is wrong to hate. But I feel like the ties of our friendship are becoming looser day by day. They don't exactly care how I feel. I don't think they care enough that I am upset or angry. These people might need out of my life to keep sanity but on the same note, I need them too. They are fun people and a good group of kids. There is nothing wrong with any of them. I just don't know where I stand with them anymore.
I'm sorry for a depressing kind of blog. Hopefully the one tonight after my day is over is a lot more uplifting. I'm going to try to have a good day and be able to talk about it later. I'm going to try to be with my good friends who I know like me for who I am. You readers are people I consider good friends. You might not check up on me every day, but this is kind of a form of hearing me out and hearing my opinions. I am grateful for you guys. Having a blog is a great way to express and let out your thoughts. Having readers is a reassurance that people care about what you have to say. It is a day maker when I get a text saying my blog is good or that they like it. They can turn my whole mood around. I love you guys. I may not know everyone who reads this, but you guys are some of my best friends. You read daily and pretty much listen to my problems. You're happy when my day is good and worried when it is bad. You guys help me get through the day. I love you all.
As I was the only one awake at Beans' house last night I ended up reading Mara's blog she wrote late last night. It solely was about her 2 best friends and the things they do together and how happy each one of them makes each other. I started to think if I had that anymore. I know I have friends like that but they're away at college. In high school I'm a bit of an outcast I believe. I do not have a strong group of friends that I can call the BEST friends I have. Truthfully, I'm not sure if a majority of them even consider me a friend, but more of an outreach to help with problems. This thought always gets me emotional and near tears almost every time. Am I just being used?
I have one friend who has been hurt, thrown down, picked back up, been put back down, and has been through a ton in her life. She's made her mistakes like the most of us and will openly admit that. She confided to me at a dinner we had that she was going to make certain decisions in order to keep herself happy and regret free. She was sure of it and told me she was done with that part of her life for a long time. Needless to say, she lied. For 2 weekends and days she's been back at her ways. Has made mistakes, and claims she regrets them. Personally I don't know if I believe her anymore. If you are dead set on something, you cannot go back on your word less than a month later. It is bull shit to me. I lose a lot of sympathy when I am cried to about the decisions she has made as they seem to be on repeat over and over again. The only time I can feel bad are when bad things happen to her that are uncontrollable for her. That is when I can feel for her and help her through the process of recovery to happiness. It's difficult when she makes the decisions over and over again that cause her regrets and sorrow. It is starting to become self destructive and I hope that over time she finds herself and is truly happy. But I'm not sure she is on the right path at the moment.
This is where I start to think, who is my friend? Who just uses me? Who is there for me? Who loves me? I know there are people out there that use me. I know there are people that love me. I know that I have friends. I know this because they are there for me as much as I am for them. When they feel I am upset, they take the time out of there day to shoot me a text and check up on me. They're willing to talk me through my problems. I am forever grateful for those people in my life. I love them endlessly.
The people that act to be my friend are the most frustrating. I feel like I'm never thought of my them although I do everything in my power to be their friend. I feel like I'm just used to be heard out, or as a place to have a large group over to chill and party. I can never pinpoint who these people are because I am not a mind reader, but I'm starting to develop opinions on those who I feel do. I do not hate them. It is wrong to hate. But I feel like the ties of our friendship are becoming looser day by day. They don't exactly care how I feel. I don't think they care enough that I am upset or angry. These people might need out of my life to keep sanity but on the same note, I need them too. They are fun people and a good group of kids. There is nothing wrong with any of them. I just don't know where I stand with them anymore.
I'm sorry for a depressing kind of blog. Hopefully the one tonight after my day is over is a lot more uplifting. I'm going to try to have a good day and be able to talk about it later. I'm going to try to be with my good friends who I know like me for who I am. You readers are people I consider good friends. You might not check up on me every day, but this is kind of a form of hearing me out and hearing my opinions. I am grateful for you guys. Having a blog is a great way to express and let out your thoughts. Having readers is a reassurance that people care about what you have to say. It is a day maker when I get a text saying my blog is good or that they like it. They can turn my whole mood around. I love you guys. I may not know everyone who reads this, but you guys are some of my best friends. You read daily and pretty much listen to my problems. You're happy when my day is good and worried when it is bad. You guys help me get through the day. I love you all.
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Coming to an End
This is the second blog from my iPhone since getting this app so I apologize for potential typos.
I am currently on the bus home from the section tournament and I really started to think. I am really going to miss wrestling. Not the weight loss and suffering but every other aspects. The coaches the team the bonding and the laughs.
These guys have been with me forever and I love each and every one of them. We are a different team definitely but these qualities define who we are. The thing I'm going to miss is the coaches. I've gone through a lot of coaches in my career but they've all taught me a different thing in life and wrestling. They are father figures to me and I know I'll be keeping in contact with them after the season and my career.
It's weird to think it is all coming to an end. I'll never step on the mat and wrestle a real match. I'll never go online and see my name in the regional and section rankings. I'll never sit at a tournament and talk about life with all my friends like I do now. It's actually heartbreaking to me. There is one tournament left until wrestling is no longer routine for me. I honestly don't think I'll accept it until the next season starts and I won't be there.
Iny 4 years of wrestling only 3 of us have stuck it out the whole way. Tanner Cogar, Jordan Douglass, and myself. These kids are my brothers. As different as we are I'll love them until the end of time and have their back always. They understand what we go through on a daily basis and for that we have a mutual respect for everything we do.
Jordan is joining the marines. This is something he has wanted for a long time and I'm incredibly proud. It honestly scares me knowing his life will be on the line everyday. I'll think abou him a ton and write to him as much as possible. My dad said the best thing someone in the military can receive is mail. I want to keep him sane and know he is safe always. I know he will pull through though. He is strong and determined and will never say die I love him.
For Tanner I do not know where to begin. Ive known this kids since birth. We've been best friends since our frst play date. He is going to college closer to home than me and i know he is going to do great. Hell have a sold group of kids around him and know hell succeed in any of his endeavors. When i come home he will be one of the first people i call. I want to stay updated on his life and know E he is doing. He is a really good friend and without him I wouldnt be me. He is one of my oldest friends and I know we'll stay close forever. I love him like my brother. He is family to me and always wil be.
Tanner and Jordan, I wish you two the bed of luck in the future. We still have a whole senior year to fulfill and I know it will be lived to the fullest. We still have our wrestling party at the end of the season. I cannot wait.
That's all I got today everyone. Thank you much for reading. You guys are all great. Have am amazing night and I hope you are all smart and safe. Goodnight I love you all.
I am currently on the bus home from the section tournament and I really started to think. I am really going to miss wrestling. Not the weight loss and suffering but every other aspects. The coaches the team the bonding and the laughs.
These guys have been with me forever and I love each and every one of them. We are a different team definitely but these qualities define who we are. The thing I'm going to miss is the coaches. I've gone through a lot of coaches in my career but they've all taught me a different thing in life and wrestling. They are father figures to me and I know I'll be keeping in contact with them after the season and my career.
It's weird to think it is all coming to an end. I'll never step on the mat and wrestle a real match. I'll never go online and see my name in the regional and section rankings. I'll never sit at a tournament and talk about life with all my friends like I do now. It's actually heartbreaking to me. There is one tournament left until wrestling is no longer routine for me. I honestly don't think I'll accept it until the next season starts and I won't be there.
Iny 4 years of wrestling only 3 of us have stuck it out the whole way. Tanner Cogar, Jordan Douglass, and myself. These kids are my brothers. As different as we are I'll love them until the end of time and have their back always. They understand what we go through on a daily basis and for that we have a mutual respect for everything we do.
Jordan is joining the marines. This is something he has wanted for a long time and I'm incredibly proud. It honestly scares me knowing his life will be on the line everyday. I'll think abou him a ton and write to him as much as possible. My dad said the best thing someone in the military can receive is mail. I want to keep him sane and know he is safe always. I know he will pull through though. He is strong and determined and will never say die I love him.
For Tanner I do not know where to begin. Ive known this kids since birth. We've been best friends since our frst play date. He is going to college closer to home than me and i know he is going to do great. Hell have a sold group of kids around him and know hell succeed in any of his endeavors. When i come home he will be one of the first people i call. I want to stay updated on his life and know E he is doing. He is a really good friend and without him I wouldnt be me. He is one of my oldest friends and I know we'll stay close forever. I love him like my brother. He is family to me and always wil be.
Tanner and Jordan, I wish you two the bed of luck in the future. We still have a whole senior year to fulfill and I know it will be lived to the fullest. We still have our wrestling party at the end of the season. I cannot wait.
That's all I got today everyone. Thank you much for reading. You guys are all great. Have am amazing night and I hope you are all smart and safe. Goodnight I love you all.
Friday, February 24, 2012
A Little Love Story
Well readers, I know my usual blog consists of a review of my day, and is a strong talk about friendship but a blog dedicated to this person is well overdue. This one is just going to tell you the main background story of my relationship with Eryne, as you should know by either knowing me or reading, who is my girlfriend. Well... here we go.
I can remember quite vividly the first time she caught my eye. It was in the Summer (I couldn't exactly tell you which Summer but I know it was Summer time). I was forced to go to my little brother's baseball game and as compensation, I was allowed to go to the wave pool after. To the game I wore some stupid t shirt and my favorite pair of lime green argyle swim trunks. I went to the game looking like a complete idiot and acted like an even larger one throughout the time. To parents, they all knew me. I was entertainment and always made them laugh and such. It wasn't until halfway through my loud attention grabbing complaining and cheering against my own brother for their season and game to end before I noticed her. The words that entered my head were simply "Oh shit." I figured at this point I blew any chance of being acquainted with her that day so I was just hoping she never caught my name. I was quite embarrassed, but I just carried on as I figured everything was already blown. That was the first time I noticed her and the last time I saw her until school sophomore year.
During the beginning of sophomore year there were no kids in my lunch in my grade. I only knew a few freshman so I chose to sit with them. Kendall Lang and Anthony Hartzog were the two main people I knew that year. I knew nothing about Eryne but I knew the table she sat at. It was a circle table. She sat with some girls I did not know, but she sat with my neighbor Kristi and my sister's friend's sister Maddie. I always glanced at the table, attempting to see her for a little. I was always quite attracted to her. The first thing I learned about her was that she played volleyball. I always attended the JV games as that is where my grade mainly played aside from a few girls. That is where I learned her name and a few things about her from Anthony. He attended every game with me because he was talking to Eryne's friend Allie. They were on the verge of dating so I always accompanied him. Fortunately for me, Allie and he started dating and he asked me to move lunch tables with him. Trust me, I was quite nervous and if you know me, I do not get nervous. I sat down, introduced myself to the people sitting there and became probably better friends to Katy Scruppi. Little did I know was she was one of Eryne's best friends. I never really talked to Eryne though. I was always nervous and tongue tied. This is why I knew she was special and different to me. I never ever ever get nervous. Over time and multiple group hangouts we eventually became friends. I was able to construct sentences and actually speak to her, from there it was my goal to get her to like me. Sadly enough I wasn't close enough to reach that goal at the time.
Allie and Anthony dated for a few months which was long enough for me to develop a strong enough friendship with everyone there to stay at the lunch table after their break up. Really I couldn't allow myself to leave. I had a nice little elementary school crush that I wanted to develop into more. I kept trying but failed over and over again. I was getting discouraged but couldn't give up. Our friendship grew, and over time we actually got close. We started to consider each other best friends which I wasn't too fond of actually. The friend zone was something I kind of feared and wanted to stay out of. I was happy where I was though, I figured at the minimum I wanted her to be a really important person and good friend in my life. Obviously I wanted more than that though.
My favorite memory during our friendship and not our relationship was a game of truth or dare. Eryne refused to deny a dare and someone (for the life of me I cannot remember who) dared her to kiss me. I know it was very cheesy and lame, but I liked it, and it made me very happy. It made me want her more than I already did. After that moment, I was a man on a mission.
Throughout the course of my sophomore year we stayed close but during the Summer we grew a bit more distant due to different interests. I was a partier and she is a good girl that didn't exactly condone my actions. We hung out a few times though which was nice, but it wasn't the same as it was during school. A huge road block hit my mission. She started to fall for another boy.
My good friend Simon started to take an interest to Ernye. I really couldn't say anything because I kept my emotions to myself, but I myself set them up and pushed Simon to go for her. She confided to me on a walk to her house that she liked him quite a bit. Simon was the first person I told I liked and cared about her, but I encouraged him to chase her. As a friend I wanted her to be happy more than anything, but deep down I hoped their relationship would fail. Luckily for me, it did. After that moment I asked to talk to her about it in attempt to get back to where we were before. She told me the story of how it was hard because they never saw each other and it was an inevitable end. That night I was back on my goal.
School started for my junior year and I lucked out with the same lunch as her, Katy, and a few other friends. I didn't sit next to her in the beginning of the year because I still had no clue of her feelings for me. We talked a lot and were still close but I was still good friends with others to sit next to them. Eventually others noticed my interest in her and called me out. I admitted my liking to her and they backed me up and helped talk her into liking me back. I am definitely still in debt to those few. Towards the end of 2010, with the help of liquid courage, I was told her that I loved her. The conversation was brief but I told her how I felt the next day and wasn't just saying it with my impaired state of mind. She told me that she liked me as well and that was my opening. It was time to take her for myself. We talked for about a month until we finally hit a small roadblock. Another close friend of mine, Clifford liked her and took her to prom. She told me that and I slightly went berserk. Things were broken and I was crushed. She had no clue how hard this would hit me as she didn't know I already backed down once to a good friend of mine. Fortunately enough, she said no in hopes I would ask her. I eventually calmed down and realized she had no clue what I had already gone through. My mind was back on track.
On February 5, 2011 she asked me to come to her house and just hang out. Me and her. This was my opening. The activities were nothing special. We played ping pong and ended the night watching Grease. Her's and my favorite musical. I kissed her once before the movie and she kissed back. That was the confidence boost I needed to get my two questions out. While watching Grease, I asked her to prom, and to officially be my girlfriend. Both answers were in my favor. My happiness was through the roof. It is still the best day of my life.
Since that glorious day we have been together for 1 year, and 19 days. We have had an anniversary, 2 valentines days, and celebrated each other's birthdays once. Mine is coming up soon for the second. I have never been happier with her in my life. She accepts me for who I am and loves me unconditionally. And I feel the exact same way. I care for her more than any other person in my life. She is the perfect person for me and I make sure I tell her that daily. She is someone I can never see out of my life. I love her. We have been through some rough times but have always came out on top. We suffered some issues with her friends not liking me that much, but I have matured and am taking steps to fix the relationships I have had with them. That is where this next paragraph will come into play.
This is to Katy. I hope Eryne tells you to read this but this is my formal and public apology. I know looking back on everything that I was completely wrong for things I have done and said to hurt you. You have done nothing wrong to me and I was immature with all of my actions. I regret them every day. I know that we were actually closer friends then me and Eryne at the beginning. I would love to be back into that tight friendship with you. You are a great person and a great friend to the people you love. I know we have a lot of differences, but so do a lot of people and myself. I want to take the steps possible to build our friendship again. You were an important person to me and I want to have you in my life as a friend again. I know it may take time, but I am willing to take the necessary actions in order for things to be like they were before. I just want to say I am truly and dearly sorry for everything and I hope you can forgive me after all of this time.
This is all I have for you guys today. I know it isnt usual for me but I felt the need to write it. There were things that were bugging me and Eryne deserves her own blog post. Thank you all for reading. Without your support I could never do this. I love you all and goodnight:)
I can remember quite vividly the first time she caught my eye. It was in the Summer (I couldn't exactly tell you which Summer but I know it was Summer time). I was forced to go to my little brother's baseball game and as compensation, I was allowed to go to the wave pool after. To the game I wore some stupid t shirt and my favorite pair of lime green argyle swim trunks. I went to the game looking like a complete idiot and acted like an even larger one throughout the time. To parents, they all knew me. I was entertainment and always made them laugh and such. It wasn't until halfway through my loud attention grabbing complaining and cheering against my own brother for their season and game to end before I noticed her. The words that entered my head were simply "Oh shit." I figured at this point I blew any chance of being acquainted with her that day so I was just hoping she never caught my name. I was quite embarrassed, but I just carried on as I figured everything was already blown. That was the first time I noticed her and the last time I saw her until school sophomore year.
During the beginning of sophomore year there were no kids in my lunch in my grade. I only knew a few freshman so I chose to sit with them. Kendall Lang and Anthony Hartzog were the two main people I knew that year. I knew nothing about Eryne but I knew the table she sat at. It was a circle table. She sat with some girls I did not know, but she sat with my neighbor Kristi and my sister's friend's sister Maddie. I always glanced at the table, attempting to see her for a little. I was always quite attracted to her. The first thing I learned about her was that she played volleyball. I always attended the JV games as that is where my grade mainly played aside from a few girls. That is where I learned her name and a few things about her from Anthony. He attended every game with me because he was talking to Eryne's friend Allie. They were on the verge of dating so I always accompanied him. Fortunately for me, Allie and he started dating and he asked me to move lunch tables with him. Trust me, I was quite nervous and if you know me, I do not get nervous. I sat down, introduced myself to the people sitting there and became probably better friends to Katy Scruppi. Little did I know was she was one of Eryne's best friends. I never really talked to Eryne though. I was always nervous and tongue tied. This is why I knew she was special and different to me. I never ever ever get nervous. Over time and multiple group hangouts we eventually became friends. I was able to construct sentences and actually speak to her, from there it was my goal to get her to like me. Sadly enough I wasn't close enough to reach that goal at the time.
Allie and Anthony dated for a few months which was long enough for me to develop a strong enough friendship with everyone there to stay at the lunch table after their break up. Really I couldn't allow myself to leave. I had a nice little elementary school crush that I wanted to develop into more. I kept trying but failed over and over again. I was getting discouraged but couldn't give up. Our friendship grew, and over time we actually got close. We started to consider each other best friends which I wasn't too fond of actually. The friend zone was something I kind of feared and wanted to stay out of. I was happy where I was though, I figured at the minimum I wanted her to be a really important person and good friend in my life. Obviously I wanted more than that though.
My favorite memory during our friendship and not our relationship was a game of truth or dare. Eryne refused to deny a dare and someone (for the life of me I cannot remember who) dared her to kiss me. I know it was very cheesy and lame, but I liked it, and it made me very happy. It made me want her more than I already did. After that moment, I was a man on a mission.
Throughout the course of my sophomore year we stayed close but during the Summer we grew a bit more distant due to different interests. I was a partier and she is a good girl that didn't exactly condone my actions. We hung out a few times though which was nice, but it wasn't the same as it was during school. A huge road block hit my mission. She started to fall for another boy.
My good friend Simon started to take an interest to Ernye. I really couldn't say anything because I kept my emotions to myself, but I myself set them up and pushed Simon to go for her. She confided to me on a walk to her house that she liked him quite a bit. Simon was the first person I told I liked and cared about her, but I encouraged him to chase her. As a friend I wanted her to be happy more than anything, but deep down I hoped their relationship would fail. Luckily for me, it did. After that moment I asked to talk to her about it in attempt to get back to where we were before. She told me the story of how it was hard because they never saw each other and it was an inevitable end. That night I was back on my goal.
School started for my junior year and I lucked out with the same lunch as her, Katy, and a few other friends. I didn't sit next to her in the beginning of the year because I still had no clue of her feelings for me. We talked a lot and were still close but I was still good friends with others to sit next to them. Eventually others noticed my interest in her and called me out. I admitted my liking to her and they backed me up and helped talk her into liking me back. I am definitely still in debt to those few. Towards the end of 2010, with the help of liquid courage, I was told her that I loved her. The conversation was brief but I told her how I felt the next day and wasn't just saying it with my impaired state of mind. She told me that she liked me as well and that was my opening. It was time to take her for myself. We talked for about a month until we finally hit a small roadblock. Another close friend of mine, Clifford liked her and took her to prom. She told me that and I slightly went berserk. Things were broken and I was crushed. She had no clue how hard this would hit me as she didn't know I already backed down once to a good friend of mine. Fortunately enough, she said no in hopes I would ask her. I eventually calmed down and realized she had no clue what I had already gone through. My mind was back on track.
On February 5, 2011 she asked me to come to her house and just hang out. Me and her. This was my opening. The activities were nothing special. We played ping pong and ended the night watching Grease. Her's and my favorite musical. I kissed her once before the movie and she kissed back. That was the confidence boost I needed to get my two questions out. While watching Grease, I asked her to prom, and to officially be my girlfriend. Both answers were in my favor. My happiness was through the roof. It is still the best day of my life.
Since that glorious day we have been together for 1 year, and 19 days. We have had an anniversary, 2 valentines days, and celebrated each other's birthdays once. Mine is coming up soon for the second. I have never been happier with her in my life. She accepts me for who I am and loves me unconditionally. And I feel the exact same way. I care for her more than any other person in my life. She is the perfect person for me and I make sure I tell her that daily. She is someone I can never see out of my life. I love her. We have been through some rough times but have always came out on top. We suffered some issues with her friends not liking me that much, but I have matured and am taking steps to fix the relationships I have had with them. That is where this next paragraph will come into play.
This is to Katy. I hope Eryne tells you to read this but this is my formal and public apology. I know looking back on everything that I was completely wrong for things I have done and said to hurt you. You have done nothing wrong to me and I was immature with all of my actions. I regret them every day. I know that we were actually closer friends then me and Eryne at the beginning. I would love to be back into that tight friendship with you. You are a great person and a great friend to the people you love. I know we have a lot of differences, but so do a lot of people and myself. I want to take the steps possible to build our friendship again. You were an important person to me and I want to have you in my life as a friend again. I know it may take time, but I am willing to take the necessary actions in order for things to be like they were before. I just want to say I am truly and dearly sorry for everything and I hope you can forgive me after all of this time.
This is all I have for you guys today. I know it isnt usual for me but I felt the need to write it. There were things that were bugging me and Eryne deserves her own blog post. Thank you all for reading. Without your support I could never do this. I love you all and goodnight:)
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Back in Action
Today I finally went back to high school. Took me long enough eh? Only 6 days off, not too bad. But in all seriousness I had a great day. School went pretty quick and it was really nice to see a bunch of people I didnt see over the long weekend. I also had something to look forward to after school and track. West Allegheny Hockey Senior Night. I was really excited because I finally gained the opportunity to go back to my old ways as a member of the student section. Covered in paint. But I'll get back to that later. I'll just review my day.
Well I got to school and was greeted by quite a few people wondering where I have been. That alone just put my day in the perfect mood because I mean hey, it was noticed I was missing. That at least means I'm thought of every once in a while right? Well along with that school went pretty quick. I didn't have much to do and didn't miss too much so it breezed on by. The highlight of the school day was definitely seeing Frau Zanella after all this time. That woman is my 2nd mom. She has been there for me through everything since the day I met her and am grateful for the rest of my life. She is a woman that I truly love as a person. I had my 2 classes with her, ate lunch (outside which was really nice), went to stats, sat in study hall, and went to track.
Track was a pleasant surprise. There were a ton of kids that showed up unlike the past 3 day of a maximum of 3 people. A lot of people came which made me really proud. Kids are dedicated this year and that is what is going to make a great team. I swear I say it every day all the time but I am so excited for track. It's the season I favor the most and just love every bit about it. I have very high expectations for it this year and I'll be working myself to the max in attempt to accomplish them.
After track I showered up, ate and got ready to go out for a pregame shopping spree with Dylan Bongiorni for the hockey game. He picked me up, we went and got our paint, got me some nice tight yoga shorts and just drove around. I love hanging out with him. Dylan that is. He is a true friend and the kind of person I can relate to. We have a lot of the same interests and can bull shit about anything really. We drove around listened to our country and just talked and talked about our lives. We ended up at our friend Garretts house and shot basketball for a while. Garrett is also someone I've known since like forever. We grew apart through the middle school and early high school stages but as we entered our senior year, we got a lot closer. I like that because he is the kind of friend you want to have. He will always have your back, will sit and talk about life with you and is just overall a good person. He is one of the kids I am most sure is going to go far in life. He has his priorities in life straight, is a hard worker, and will do whatever it takes to accomplish his goals (hence 2 GOLD state medals). He is someone I'll miss in college, along with Dylan, and will try to catch up with him anytime I get.
Finally Dylan and I headed to the game and got a nice parking spot. We took off our shirts, got the paint and hooked each other up. Since there were only 2 of us, we had one name as an option. One of our stars. Mo Coburn. On our backs I represented the numbers 9, 51, and 16. 3 of my good friends and 3 people I madly respect. Dylan wore the number 93 for our star goalie Jason Kumpfmiller. I'm going to get a little side tracked here but Jason is a person I want to talk about.
Jason, or Kumpf as he is known in West A and most of the world, is a kid that I was really good friends with early in high school. We hung out a good bit, partied together, and just always had a good time. Through sophomore and junior year we grew apart a lot. We could actually say that we had some bad blood between us for reasons I cannot even remember. This senior year during the football season we put our differences aside for the sake of the student section. Since then I guess we can label our friendship as cool. Not best friends but we respect each other. This kid has been through a lot. He is one of the strongest kids I know and just keeps grinding through the struggles. He has some strength I don't know if I will ever have. Through the rest of this senior year, I hope that we can become better friends. I know he, like Garrett, will always have one of his boys' backs. That is the kind of kid you can never hate. I know that we're going to wind up in the same house as each other but hopefully some day I'll maybe get a call inviting me to play some poker at his house and just chill. I'm fairly certain over time we could become tight.
Back to the hockey game, though. It was an easy win. Our paint and enthusiasm got his a 6-0 win with Mo having 4 points. He played outrageously. It was a great game to watch and showed us why this team is the best in the section. I have high hopes for the team as they are the face of West Allegheny Sports. After the game is where I'm at now. Home, cleaned up, and just excited to blog. Today was a great day and tomorrow is going to be great as well. I'm hanging out with Eryne for the first time in forever. We're probably going to watch the most recent Twilight movie. I'm not too thrilled about the series but she likes them and when she is happy, so am I.
Well blogger I must say goodnight to you. I'm posting my first photo ever as it is a great memory of tonight. My quote I made up is one that I truly enjoy. "Although the paint runs off, the memories last forever." Thank you all for reading, I know it was long and I apologize. You are all truly great. I love you all. See you all tomorrow.
Well I got to school and was greeted by quite a few people wondering where I have been. That alone just put my day in the perfect mood because I mean hey, it was noticed I was missing. That at least means I'm thought of every once in a while right? Well along with that school went pretty quick. I didn't have much to do and didn't miss too much so it breezed on by. The highlight of the school day was definitely seeing Frau Zanella after all this time. That woman is my 2nd mom. She has been there for me through everything since the day I met her and am grateful for the rest of my life. She is a woman that I truly love as a person. I had my 2 classes with her, ate lunch (outside which was really nice), went to stats, sat in study hall, and went to track.
Track was a pleasant surprise. There were a ton of kids that showed up unlike the past 3 day of a maximum of 3 people. A lot of people came which made me really proud. Kids are dedicated this year and that is what is going to make a great team. I swear I say it every day all the time but I am so excited for track. It's the season I favor the most and just love every bit about it. I have very high expectations for it this year and I'll be working myself to the max in attempt to accomplish them.
After track I showered up, ate and got ready to go out for a pregame shopping spree with Dylan Bongiorni for the hockey game. He picked me up, we went and got our paint, got me some nice tight yoga shorts and just drove around. I love hanging out with him. Dylan that is. He is a true friend and the kind of person I can relate to. We have a lot of the same interests and can bull shit about anything really. We drove around listened to our country and just talked and talked about our lives. We ended up at our friend Garretts house and shot basketball for a while. Garrett is also someone I've known since like forever. We grew apart through the middle school and early high school stages but as we entered our senior year, we got a lot closer. I like that because he is the kind of friend you want to have. He will always have your back, will sit and talk about life with you and is just overall a good person. He is one of the kids I am most sure is going to go far in life. He has his priorities in life straight, is a hard worker, and will do whatever it takes to accomplish his goals (hence 2 GOLD state medals). He is someone I'll miss in college, along with Dylan, and will try to catch up with him anytime I get.
Finally Dylan and I headed to the game and got a nice parking spot. We took off our shirts, got the paint and hooked each other up. Since there were only 2 of us, we had one name as an option. One of our stars. Mo Coburn. On our backs I represented the numbers 9, 51, and 16. 3 of my good friends and 3 people I madly respect. Dylan wore the number 93 for our star goalie Jason Kumpfmiller. I'm going to get a little side tracked here but Jason is a person I want to talk about.
Jason, or Kumpf as he is known in West A and most of the world, is a kid that I was really good friends with early in high school. We hung out a good bit, partied together, and just always had a good time. Through sophomore and junior year we grew apart a lot. We could actually say that we had some bad blood between us for reasons I cannot even remember. This senior year during the football season we put our differences aside for the sake of the student section. Since then I guess we can label our friendship as cool. Not best friends but we respect each other. This kid has been through a lot. He is one of the strongest kids I know and just keeps grinding through the struggles. He has some strength I don't know if I will ever have. Through the rest of this senior year, I hope that we can become better friends. I know he, like Garrett, will always have one of his boys' backs. That is the kind of kid you can never hate. I know that we're going to wind up in the same house as each other but hopefully some day I'll maybe get a call inviting me to play some poker at his house and just chill. I'm fairly certain over time we could become tight.
Back to the hockey game, though. It was an easy win. Our paint and enthusiasm got his a 6-0 win with Mo having 4 points. He played outrageously. It was a great game to watch and showed us why this team is the best in the section. I have high hopes for the team as they are the face of West Allegheny Sports. After the game is where I'm at now. Home, cleaned up, and just excited to blog. Today was a great day and tomorrow is going to be great as well. I'm hanging out with Eryne for the first time in forever. We're probably going to watch the most recent Twilight movie. I'm not too thrilled about the series but she likes them and when she is happy, so am I.
Well blogger I must say goodnight to you. I'm posting my first photo ever as it is a great memory of tonight. My quote I made up is one that I truly enjoy. "Although the paint runs off, the memories last forever." Thank you all for reading, I know it was long and I apologize. You are all truly great. I love you all. See you all tomorrow.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Uneventful
I guess I really don't have much to say today. I stayed home sick because I woke up with a serious stomach ache and laid in bed all day. Around noon I threw up and everything felt better. I could eat and drink without fearing it would come up.
I still kept my goal and went to track today. We added a new member to our running group. Little Lauren Costa can in with fresh legs and gave it her all too. She is going to be a force to. E reckoned with these next 4 years. After track I watched wrestling, went home, and sat here for the rest of the day. It felt good to run again although I was sick. Ill be back at school tomorrow where I can finally see everybody again. Goodnight my friends. I love you all.
I still kept my goal and went to track today. We added a new member to our running group. Little Lauren Costa can in with fresh legs and gave it her all too. She is going to be a force to. E reckoned with these next 4 years. After track I watched wrestling, went home, and sat here for the rest of the day. It felt good to run again although I was sick. Ill be back at school tomorrow where I can finally see everybody again. Goodnight my friends. I love you all.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Sorry Blogger it's Been a While
To the few readers I may have left, I am truly sorry for this long long long break from blogging. I guess I've been keeping to myself lately. But I guess I'll just go over some highlights and then just get into these past few days.
For one, I no longer have a criminal record. I blogged about my incident before so you can read up on that if you're interested, but needless to say It feels like the biggest weight is lifted off my shoulders.
The next big thing that happened was the West Allegheny vs Bishop Canevin hockey game. We won in an epic game with my good friend having one of his best performances of the year. I was truly proud of him. After the game we had no school, the start of the senior 5 day weekend. We went to Mo's house and just hung out. Me and a bunch of good people. We ate pizza, played cards, and reminisced about our pasts. Good and bad. Needless to say it was a good time.
Friday we had a wrestling match. This match was big because it was to help my best friend Tanner work his way to 100 wins. He received the victory and got one step closer. Our team also won to our surprise and it was just a happy ending to a good day. I stayed over my friend Beans' house after the match and hungout with him, played some pool, and watched Lord of the Rings. Another fantastic night.
Saturday was one of the best days of the weekend. I went home from Beans' house in the morning and got ready for my day with my wonderful girlfriend Eryne. We hung out for a good while until I had to go home and get ready for a bon fire I was having at my house later that night. I had a bunch of my good buddies over and we just hung out with my dad, told stories, listened to music and had an overall great time. The morning got me thinking though. I started to think who my friends were. In the morning I saw that some were and some weren't. It got to me. But my true friends again showed who they are by being by my side and helping me. I truly love all of them. The rest of the Sunday morning was relaxing until I went out with Beans again. We drove around and ended up playing pool in Bridgeville. Something that was more enjoyable than I thought it was going to be. I stayed over again and we went to wrestling in the morning.
Monday was a rougher day. We went to wrestling which was a strictly running practice. Being out all this time with my concussion got me in terrible shape and had to sit out for one of our relays. It felt good to run. Really good actually and got me craving track season to start soon. 2 weeks I'll be back on the track running my heart out. I cannot wait. After practice I ended up on facebook and saw a status from my track coach. There was actually voluntary workout starting that day at 3 for all the sprinters. I was really excited. I called up all the runners and informed them. It was obvious they were not as excited as I was. I first went to lunch with Eryne and her brother Nick. We went to Saga and fulfilled my sushi addiction and hung out with her for a little while. After that I went to track. There were only 3 of us. Jenny Forse, Coach Mills, and myself. We ran 24 55 meter sprints as our first workout. It was rough and I felt it all day, but it was refreshing to talk about this upcoming season and how we thought it was going to go. I was excited already. After practice I fell asleep for two hours and stayed up for a little. I just listened to music and eventually fell asleep.
I woke up today on Monday and really just hung out by myself until I saw a tweet from my good friend Mike. He was just about to leave for Quaker Steak and Lube to say goodbye to our really good friend Zpon who left for bootcamp today. We hungout there, shared memories with all of my older friends, and said our goodbyes. It was a happy and sad moment at the same time. I am really proud of him. He is doing this for his education to better himself. I have the fullest respect for that. Good luck Zpon. I love you buddy. After that, Mike took me to my second day of track. Today we did 15 80 meter sprints. It was a lot harder but I know this is only going to benefit me in the end. I'm not missing a single practice this season. After that I went to wrestling practice and just watched. I'm still not allowed to wrestle and will be out for the season, but I feel the need to show up. I'm still a member of this team and need to show my support and dedication. After the game I went to the playoff basketball game with Dylan Bongiorni. The game was insane and I am so happy that I went. It was a great game and a great time. That concludes my weekend.
Along with all this happening. I made a major goal for myself. I want to be there for anyone in need. A good friend or not. The minute after I posted this I received a text from my friend Samara. She is having a tough time making decisions about someone trying to win her back who wronged her so many times. I listened and gave the best advice I could give. I really hoped it helped her out and in the end I want her to be happy. She is the kind of person that went through a lot of undeserving pain and deserves to be happy after all that she had suffered. This wasn't the first time I've talked to her about this situation. It is one that I don't know a ton about, but enough for me to voice an opinion. Samara is someone I can never say that I have been close with, but we have always been friends. She is someone I can say hi to in the hallways and always get a nice hello back. She is a real nice girl. She is definitely someone that I would like becoming a better friend with. Someone who has been through a lot and can relate to me on a lot of subjects. Through all of this I do feel closer to her. Not like a relationship close but a solid friendship close. Hopefully by the end of the year I can call her one of my best friends. She knows that I'm always there for her, and I hope that when I'm in need she'll be there for me to turn too and vent. I have faith in this girl. She has a lot going for her and is going to accomplish great things. I know it.
Well I hope I didn't bore you all but I had a lot to reminisce about. This was my 5 day weekend. I hope all of you had a great one as well. Keep reading, be safe, and tell someone you love them. It'll make their day. Goodnight.
For one, I no longer have a criminal record. I blogged about my incident before so you can read up on that if you're interested, but needless to say It feels like the biggest weight is lifted off my shoulders.
The next big thing that happened was the West Allegheny vs Bishop Canevin hockey game. We won in an epic game with my good friend having one of his best performances of the year. I was truly proud of him. After the game we had no school, the start of the senior 5 day weekend. We went to Mo's house and just hung out. Me and a bunch of good people. We ate pizza, played cards, and reminisced about our pasts. Good and bad. Needless to say it was a good time.
Friday we had a wrestling match. This match was big because it was to help my best friend Tanner work his way to 100 wins. He received the victory and got one step closer. Our team also won to our surprise and it was just a happy ending to a good day. I stayed over my friend Beans' house after the match and hungout with him, played some pool, and watched Lord of the Rings. Another fantastic night.
Saturday was one of the best days of the weekend. I went home from Beans' house in the morning and got ready for my day with my wonderful girlfriend Eryne. We hung out for a good while until I had to go home and get ready for a bon fire I was having at my house later that night. I had a bunch of my good buddies over and we just hung out with my dad, told stories, listened to music and had an overall great time. The morning got me thinking though. I started to think who my friends were. In the morning I saw that some were and some weren't. It got to me. But my true friends again showed who they are by being by my side and helping me. I truly love all of them. The rest of the Sunday morning was relaxing until I went out with Beans again. We drove around and ended up playing pool in Bridgeville. Something that was more enjoyable than I thought it was going to be. I stayed over again and we went to wrestling in the morning.
Monday was a rougher day. We went to wrestling which was a strictly running practice. Being out all this time with my concussion got me in terrible shape and had to sit out for one of our relays. It felt good to run. Really good actually and got me craving track season to start soon. 2 weeks I'll be back on the track running my heart out. I cannot wait. After practice I ended up on facebook and saw a status from my track coach. There was actually voluntary workout starting that day at 3 for all the sprinters. I was really excited. I called up all the runners and informed them. It was obvious they were not as excited as I was. I first went to lunch with Eryne and her brother Nick. We went to Saga and fulfilled my sushi addiction and hung out with her for a little while. After that I went to track. There were only 3 of us. Jenny Forse, Coach Mills, and myself. We ran 24 55 meter sprints as our first workout. It was rough and I felt it all day, but it was refreshing to talk about this upcoming season and how we thought it was going to go. I was excited already. After practice I fell asleep for two hours and stayed up for a little. I just listened to music and eventually fell asleep.
I woke up today on Monday and really just hung out by myself until I saw a tweet from my good friend Mike. He was just about to leave for Quaker Steak and Lube to say goodbye to our really good friend Zpon who left for bootcamp today. We hungout there, shared memories with all of my older friends, and said our goodbyes. It was a happy and sad moment at the same time. I am really proud of him. He is doing this for his education to better himself. I have the fullest respect for that. Good luck Zpon. I love you buddy. After that, Mike took me to my second day of track. Today we did 15 80 meter sprints. It was a lot harder but I know this is only going to benefit me in the end. I'm not missing a single practice this season. After that I went to wrestling practice and just watched. I'm still not allowed to wrestle and will be out for the season, but I feel the need to show up. I'm still a member of this team and need to show my support and dedication. After the game I went to the playoff basketball game with Dylan Bongiorni. The game was insane and I am so happy that I went. It was a great game and a great time. That concludes my weekend.
Along with all this happening. I made a major goal for myself. I want to be there for anyone in need. A good friend or not. The minute after I posted this I received a text from my friend Samara. She is having a tough time making decisions about someone trying to win her back who wronged her so many times. I listened and gave the best advice I could give. I really hoped it helped her out and in the end I want her to be happy. She is the kind of person that went through a lot of undeserving pain and deserves to be happy after all that she had suffered. This wasn't the first time I've talked to her about this situation. It is one that I don't know a ton about, but enough for me to voice an opinion. Samara is someone I can never say that I have been close with, but we have always been friends. She is someone I can say hi to in the hallways and always get a nice hello back. She is a real nice girl. She is definitely someone that I would like becoming a better friend with. Someone who has been through a lot and can relate to me on a lot of subjects. Through all of this I do feel closer to her. Not like a relationship close but a solid friendship close. Hopefully by the end of the year I can call her one of my best friends. She knows that I'm always there for her, and I hope that when I'm in need she'll be there for me to turn too and vent. I have faith in this girl. She has a lot going for her and is going to accomplish great things. I know it.
Well I hope I didn't bore you all but I had a lot to reminisce about. This was my 5 day weekend. I hope all of you had a great one as well. Keep reading, be safe, and tell someone you love them. It'll make their day. Goodnight.
Monday, February 6, 2012
What A Strange Day
You know those days where you just feel kinda out of it? Like you're not fully there and you don't really like feel anything. I had one of those days today. It was definitely not a bad day. I had fun today, but I just felt like kinda odd. School actually breezed by with no problems aside from the occasional headache, and I got to play basketball with a ton of kids after school. All in all it was fun, but there was just this weird feeling.
I truly believe it is from lack of sleep. This blog is incredibly short because of it. I'm dead and still out of it really. I apologize for my lack of content tonight. Hopefully tomorrow is more exciting to write about.
I truly believe it is from lack of sleep. This blog is incredibly short because of it. I'm dead and still out of it really. I apologize for my lack of content tonight. Hopefully tomorrow is more exciting to write about.
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Just My Perspective
For years there has been a heated battle on the opinion on the use of the word love. Some believe it is used too much. Some believe it isn't used enough. I personally believe that love should be used as much as possible. I have a certain perspective on love that I'm sure some agree with and some will think the complete opposite, but this is my blog and you're reading it so I guess you have to deal.
I believe there are different types of love. Friend love, family love, and the love of a significant other. I believe that you can freely day you love a friend because they're important to you. This does not mean, however, that you feel the same way about this person as your significant other. I guess my best form of comparison would have to be between my track team and my own significant other. So... here we go.
To start of with my track team (well I personally prefer to call them track family), I do love a majority of the members of this team. Each of them holds a certain trait that can either put me in a good mood, make me laugh, and makes it aware that I am as important to them as they are to me. This is what true friendship is and people like that deserve love and to be treated the same way. These people are some of my closest friends, and after spending 12 hours with them yesterday, I realized how important they are to me. I don't have any affectionate feelings for them, but I care about each and every one of them and love them like I love all my other friends. These kids are the best out there. All of them are ideal individuals that deserve the best in life (even Eli) and when I leave for college in a few months, I'll be wishing them all the best of luck.
The second side of the comparison is the type of love for my significant other, Eryne Wiethorn. Today, February 5th, marks the one year anniversary since the start of our relationship. Although we have dated for only a year, I have had strong feelings for her years before the start. Feelings I believe are the difference between the types of love. I do not have feelings for the track team members but I care about them. I have the strongest of feelings for her and can say I love her unlike anyone else in my life. It is different when I say it to her then when I say it to a friend (boy or girl). It stands for something different. It means that I will always have the strongest feelings of affection for you, I want you in my life forever, I care about you more than anything, and I never want to lose you. When I say it to anyone else, it means I care about you and I am very happy you are someone in my life, and I know that you care about me as well. I cannot see myself with anyone else in the world, especially not the friends I have. I love my friends, but not the same kind of love.
Well this is the thoughts I have. On another note, today was another fantastic day. Truthfully, this is the best week I've had since summer. I spent it with various friends, the track family, and my wonderful girlfriend. I couldn't ask for more. I'd just like to say I also love all of you who read. Although the number may be small, you mean something to me and make me want to blog more and more often. Thank you for the support.
I believe there are different types of love. Friend love, family love, and the love of a significant other. I believe that you can freely day you love a friend because they're important to you. This does not mean, however, that you feel the same way about this person as your significant other. I guess my best form of comparison would have to be between my track team and my own significant other. So... here we go.
To start of with my track team (well I personally prefer to call them track family), I do love a majority of the members of this team. Each of them holds a certain trait that can either put me in a good mood, make me laugh, and makes it aware that I am as important to them as they are to me. This is what true friendship is and people like that deserve love and to be treated the same way. These people are some of my closest friends, and after spending 12 hours with them yesterday, I realized how important they are to me. I don't have any affectionate feelings for them, but I care about each and every one of them and love them like I love all my other friends. These kids are the best out there. All of them are ideal individuals that deserve the best in life (even Eli) and when I leave for college in a few months, I'll be wishing them all the best of luck.
The second side of the comparison is the type of love for my significant other, Eryne Wiethorn. Today, February 5th, marks the one year anniversary since the start of our relationship. Although we have dated for only a year, I have had strong feelings for her years before the start. Feelings I believe are the difference between the types of love. I do not have feelings for the track team members but I care about them. I have the strongest of feelings for her and can say I love her unlike anyone else in my life. It is different when I say it to her then when I say it to a friend (boy or girl). It stands for something different. It means that I will always have the strongest feelings of affection for you, I want you in my life forever, I care about you more than anything, and I never want to lose you. When I say it to anyone else, it means I care about you and I am very happy you are someone in my life, and I know that you care about me as well. I cannot see myself with anyone else in the world, especially not the friends I have. I love my friends, but not the same kind of love.
Well this is the thoughts I have. On another note, today was another fantastic day. Truthfully, this is the best week I've had since summer. I spent it with various friends, the track family, and my wonderful girlfriend. I couldn't ask for more. I'd just like to say I also love all of you who read. Although the number may be small, you mean something to me and make me want to blog more and more often. Thank you for the support.
Friday, February 3, 2012
A Team, A Family
You should always be able to consider a teammate a second family member in the perspective of the sport. I for example can think of multiple individuals on each one of my teams who I can consider my brother or sister. A moment like this shined today as we had our first indoor track pasta party of the year. This is the true reason why West Allegheny track and field and cross country continue to be dominant sports every year. Our team has a special bond with each other where all love each other and consider each other family.
Today at school around 5th period I just started thinking about this pasta party. It was all I could think about and I was beyond excited for the evening ahead of me. I really missed track. It is so much different from wrestling just based on the individuals on the team. The attitude is like completely different and I must say I act more like a track kid than a wrestler. I feel as though wrestling is a certain addiction of mine I'll never be able to drop unless forced to. I'm getting off subject though so back to the dinner. I wasn't sure who was going to be there. All I knew was Sammy and Lauren Costa, R.J, and I would be in attendance. To my surprise, we had a fairly large and diverse turn out. Usually at these bonding events held by alumni members, it would consist of the whole distance team and myself. This time we had sprinters, distance, jumpers, just pretty much everything. It was a nice change. I believe this team blends together very well and won't be separated by the divider of distance and sprints. We will be one big happy family.
The generous Costa family gave us their home for 5 hours straingt (7-12) and allowed us to eat all their food pretty much. Pasta, garlic bread, salad, sweets, and pop. We ate (I said grace), chatted, and had a ton of laughs around the dinner table. It literally felt like a family dinner that happens every single night. Truthfully, I wouldn't mind eating with these kids every day. The food was delicious and after a long talk session among the table, we finally made our way downstairs to watch our pump up movie "Warrior." This is truly a great flick that anyone can see and I will leave it at that.
The movie ended and we were on our way to leave with it almost being midnight. Honestly, I should be asleep right now. I have an early wake up ahead of me but I felt the urge to blog about another great day. It feels really good to get my thoughts out there even if two or three people read. This is all I have today everybody. I need to get to bed because I have a whole day to spend with my running family. Have a wonderful night every one. God Bless.
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Swim Meets and Floppy Tits
I know you may be confused or disturbed by this title, but you'll understand after like a minute or so of reading this...
Well today just kind of started off as a slow day. My head was really pounding and I had a ton of stuff to do to catch up in school. Truthfully I couldn't stay focused all day because I really wanted a Shamrock Shake. Oh lord they are heaven in a cup. But after a day of watching another wrestling practice I had the pleasure of attending my first swim meet of the year.
It was against Montour and generally I was excited to see how the boys team of 4 would compete with what looked like a small army. Nothing against the girls, but I just know that they're going to win every time. So the meet just starts off with me and good old Tommy Forse as the lone student sections for the first few events. We share a few laugh's primarily because of a certain Montour swimmer. Let's just say he's the main reason for the title. God, he should have been wearing a girl's suit to conceal those bad boys. Aside from his hilarious physique, he gave us the biggest laugh after crashing head first into the wall during the 100 meter backstroke. He was hurting and I laughed, but I feel for the kid. I know what it's like to bash your head off a hard surface and I hope he isn't concussed and it ends his season. Jared came after the first intermission and was there with us for the rest of the event. We all chatted, shared a ton of laughs because of pretty much the same kid, and endured the epic boys 500 meter freestyle race. Watching paint dry was truly more exciting.
The meet ended and the boys suffered a defeat due to lack of numbers, but the girls scored yet another victory this year. I am very proud of our girls team this year. Them and hockey are the faces of West A sports this year, and they are doing a great job representing us. We said hello to our friends, congratulated them, talked to parents and were on our way. Tom, Jared, and I on the way to the van on our voyage to Enlow. I found it kind of ironic that the only 2 kids in the senior class without licenses bummed the same ride. We bumped some Mac Miller featuring my favorite line and the name of this blog 'White Boy Awesome' and made it to my home. That where this day takes me to this very moment.
To rate this day as a whole, I'd give it an 8 primarily because of hanging out with Tom and Jared at this meet. As I've said before on this, these are two kids that I greatly respect and am incredibly glad I am friends with them. Jared is the kind of kid that you can literally hold a conversation with about anything because he is wise a loads of the information I love. I swear we could sit down and talk about Pokemon for at least 2 hours with ease coming up with the perfect team, favorite moves, series, gym leaders, etc. Tom is a kid I've just known forever and aside from getting a ride from him, I could count on him for anything. He is the person that would have anyone's back if he knew you had his. He loves all his friends and know that we love him back. A true and ideal person with a great perspective on life. Much better than mine in my own opinion.
Well the three readers I have, I'm glad you could hang on through this one with me. Got some opinions on people out, summarized my day, and gave you a little swim meet anecdote. Hope you all enjoyed. Stay safe and healthy and i love you all.
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Slowly Becoming Addicted
My last blog literally left me with the best after feeling in the world. It felt like the world was lifted from my shoulder to just finally get all of my thoughts out there and spoken out. I trust my readers and friends with my thoughts as I am quite the open book. As you may be thinking possibly negative things about the title... it's about blogging. I see it as the perfect way for expression. I want to try to blog at least 3 times a week and just let my thoughts and emotions (good or bad) out and get the stresses off my mind. So... here we go...
Today had such a different flow from any other day I've had in a while. I actually had something to look forward to. Today was the AP Economics Chipotle Dinner that Amanda, Ashley, Braden, and I have been planning for about two months now. There was nothing spectacular that happened today, but the fact I was with the best of friends just made it fantastic. These people are very important in my life. Although I cannot say I hang out with them often, I find them very important to me.
I have known Braden literally since preschool. We were in the same class at ages three and four. We then proceeded to go to elementary school together where I later met Amanda. She was a girl and I was a naive boy, so our friendship didn't exactly start to develop until like 4th or 5th grade, but we've known each other for a very long time. Ashley has been in my life for the least amount of time and truthfully I do not believe we started off on the right foot. I can never explain why but I saw her as kind of snobby in middle school. I think it was because I wasn't that fond of her middle school friend, but who can live in the past and what matters is that we are close now. I've rambled a little so.... back to the day.
Well school finally ended and I had to stay after for concussion rehab and such but this dinner was all I could think of. What felt like forever finally ended and I was ready to go. I rode up with Amanda and Ash who were finished swimming around the same time and met Braden there. We sat, chatted about life and prom and tons of other things, and finally finished our meal. We then proceeded to go to Amanda's house for a little before the basketball game me and Braden were supposed to go to. Basketball was cancelled which was very disappointing. Although I couldn't play, I just wanted to be around my friend and have a good time and get a few laughs with some good people. We compensated by making brownies though and boy were they delicious. That is the only thing good about having a concussion and being done with wrestling (and when I say only I mean only) is that I can finally eat. I had one disappointment of the night. Mrs. Gannon was not in attendance today. She was out to eat with my rival (Mr. Gannon). From what I've been told is that I am quite loved by here. I take pride in parents liking me. I truly do. It gives me a good feeling because adults are much more respectable and I believe their opinions matter a lot more in life. I wish I could have at least said hello and given her some form of compliment to brighten her day of some sort. But i guess you can't get everything you want.
That's all I really got today I guess. I feel much much happier then I did the day of my past blog. I just have to thank my friends for always being there for me and just say I love you all. Thank you.
Today had such a different flow from any other day I've had in a while. I actually had something to look forward to. Today was the AP Economics Chipotle Dinner that Amanda, Ashley, Braden, and I have been planning for about two months now. There was nothing spectacular that happened today, but the fact I was with the best of friends just made it fantastic. These people are very important in my life. Although I cannot say I hang out with them often, I find them very important to me.
I have known Braden literally since preschool. We were in the same class at ages three and four. We then proceeded to go to elementary school together where I later met Amanda. She was a girl and I was a naive boy, so our friendship didn't exactly start to develop until like 4th or 5th grade, but we've known each other for a very long time. Ashley has been in my life for the least amount of time and truthfully I do not believe we started off on the right foot. I can never explain why but I saw her as kind of snobby in middle school. I think it was because I wasn't that fond of her middle school friend, but who can live in the past and what matters is that we are close now. I've rambled a little so.... back to the day.
Well school finally ended and I had to stay after for concussion rehab and such but this dinner was all I could think of. What felt like forever finally ended and I was ready to go. I rode up with Amanda and Ash who were finished swimming around the same time and met Braden there. We sat, chatted about life and prom and tons of other things, and finally finished our meal. We then proceeded to go to Amanda's house for a little before the basketball game me and Braden were supposed to go to. Basketball was cancelled which was very disappointing. Although I couldn't play, I just wanted to be around my friend and have a good time and get a few laughs with some good people. We compensated by making brownies though and boy were they delicious. That is the only thing good about having a concussion and being done with wrestling (and when I say only I mean only) is that I can finally eat. I had one disappointment of the night. Mrs. Gannon was not in attendance today. She was out to eat with my rival (Mr. Gannon). From what I've been told is that I am quite loved by here. I take pride in parents liking me. I truly do. It gives me a good feeling because adults are much more respectable and I believe their opinions matter a lot more in life. I wish I could have at least said hello and given her some form of compliment to brighten her day of some sort. But i guess you can't get everything you want.
That's all I really got today I guess. I feel much much happier then I did the day of my past blog. I just have to thank my friends for always being there for me and just say I love you all. Thank you.
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